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Note to self.
Oct. 26th, 2007 12:32 pmI need to stop being so angry at myself all of the time.
The decisions others make are not my fault or responsibility.
Just because everyone else is giving up on something doesn't mean I have to.
Being alone isn't the same as being lonely.
I shouldn't be ashamed of what I like.
THE DECISIONS OTHERS MAKE ARE NOT MY FAULT OR RESPONSIBILITY.
I want to scream it until I get it. but it's really quiet in here and I don't think anyone else would appreciate that. (or think i wasn't crazy)
I've been swimming in my own, negative funk and I've had enough.
Just because other people aren't speaking to me doesn't mean they're avoiding me. Fight the right fights, lose the stupid ones. Don't be so dependent, it'll leave you nothing but angry.
I'm fine.
I need to stop being so goddamn paranoid.
-breathe-
*
ok, so now that i've granted myself a much needed slap to the face...I'm better. much better, in fact.
so yay ^.^
the diet is still going, so far I've lost 31 lbs. :D as of this week. I was supposed to allow myself to get Guitar Hero once i hit 30, but i had to get a vaccuum cleaner and now i'm poor x.x dangit.
I'm wearing a shirt today that I bought about six months ago. When I bought it, it was too small, and I got it with the intention of one day being able to fit into it...and today i'm wearing it comfortably ^______^
my pants on the other hand...ugh. XP
Someone sent me flowers today <3 the note was anonymous (tho i think i know who it was anyway X3) and they're beautiful. the last (and only) time i was ever, personally sent flowers was when dad died. I'm such a girl, these flowers are so colorful, they make me smile :)
it's friday. (BIG plus)
tomorow, i'm going to see transformers in IMAX, and I'm spending the day halloween/misc shopping with Molly. Sunday is our halloween artsyfartsy party. Won't have the chance to see any family this weekend, but I think i'm going to have to make a point in seeing mom sometime soon.
Nekocon is in a week. Our button parts arrived last week and we're good to go.
I finally got a new digicam, (for FREE~!) and have been taking snapshots of myself just for the hell of it (thanks Sako ;) it's addicting)
I have no excuse for being so damn emo lately, so I'm quitting. <3
Still looking for someone to help me out with storystuff if anyone's interested ^^ nothing too serious, just assistance/opinions on plot and perhaps a beta reader.
SHADRA! i keep missing you online, damnit. :F
The decisions others make are not my fault or responsibility.
Just because everyone else is giving up on something doesn't mean I have to.
Being alone isn't the same as being lonely.
I shouldn't be ashamed of what I like.
THE DECISIONS OTHERS MAKE ARE NOT MY FAULT OR RESPONSIBILITY.
I want to scream it until I get it. but it's really quiet in here and I don't think anyone else would appreciate that. (or think i wasn't crazy)
I've been swimming in my own, negative funk and I've had enough.
Just because other people aren't speaking to me doesn't mean they're avoiding me. Fight the right fights, lose the stupid ones. Don't be so dependent, it'll leave you nothing but angry.
I'm fine.
I need to stop being so goddamn paranoid.
-breathe-
*
ok, so now that i've granted myself a much needed slap to the face...I'm better. much better, in fact.
so yay ^.^
the diet is still going, so far I've lost 31 lbs. :D as of this week. I was supposed to allow myself to get Guitar Hero once i hit 30, but i had to get a vaccuum cleaner and now i'm poor x.x dangit.
I'm wearing a shirt today that I bought about six months ago. When I bought it, it was too small, and I got it with the intention of one day being able to fit into it...and today i'm wearing it comfortably ^______^
my pants on the other hand...ugh. XP
Someone sent me flowers today <3 the note was anonymous (tho i think i know who it was anyway X3) and they're beautiful. the last (and only) time i was ever, personally sent flowers was when dad died. I'm such a girl, these flowers are so colorful, they make me smile :)
it's friday. (BIG plus)
tomorow, i'm going to see transformers in IMAX, and I'm spending the day halloween/misc shopping with Molly. Sunday is our halloween artsyfartsy party. Won't have the chance to see any family this weekend, but I think i'm going to have to make a point in seeing mom sometime soon.
Nekocon is in a week. Our button parts arrived last week and we're good to go.
I finally got a new digicam, (for FREE~!) and have been taking snapshots of myself just for the hell of it (thanks Sako ;) it's addicting)
I have no excuse for being so damn emo lately, so I'm quitting. <3
Still looking for someone to help me out with storystuff if anyone's interested ^^ nothing too serious, just assistance/opinions on plot and perhaps a beta reader.
SHADRA! i keep missing you online, damnit. :F
