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just giving my self esteem a little kick in the ass, don't mind me.
( An unplanned, but interesting comparison )
( An unplanned, but interesting comparison )
gah, falling behind. DEAR MAY, WHY SO BUSY. yikes.
so, in ironic news, after fighting with the apartment office and being obnoxiously belittled by the suits who think i don't know my ass from my elbow, i have air conditioning. \o/
which, of course, means that the entirety of this week was a balmy 60 degrees or so, and i never once turned it on.
of course.
but, as M reassures me, its the principle of the thing, and i don't regret putting my foot down. they're doing the second bed bug spray this weekend and all my crap is moved all over the place again so that they can get it over with. if this happens again though, my neighbors are getting an H2SO4 care package. complete with bow. cause i'm sweet like that.
In awesometime news, things aren't sucking as much anymore. WHICH IS GREAT, LEMME TELL YOU.
I took my mother to King's Dominion over the weekend for a nice change of pace to mother's day and had the most amazing time in the history of amazing. no, really, i can challenge this. For those of you who know me, or have been following along with my recent surgery and weight loss struggles, one of the biggest things i've wanted to be able to do is ride as many roller coasters as i can. not because i just barely fit in them and can, but because of the strength of my courage. and last weekend? there wasn't a single coaster i didn't fit in. so i got to pick them according to whether or not i'd chicken out instead of the size of my ass.
it was, in short, UNBELIEVABLE. i was beside myself at just how easy it was to fit in and just be normal, for once in my life. i loved it so damn much, and was grateful that i made it through the entire day without once bawling like a little girl when i found out (at least til i got home, lol. stupid chick flick moments) after all the years of going with M and her family to amusement parks and just wishing and hoping that i could ride everything with her without having to do that horrifying walk of shame, i finally got to do EXACTLY THAT.
and there are no words to describe how grateful i am. if i never lose another pound, i will be happy being just...normal sized, for the rest of my life. i don't wanna be a stick, i just want to blend. and i did, and it was wonderful. no one stared at me, barely anyone even knew i was standing there and i LOVED IT. <3
aaaaaand finally, in other news:
I'm going to London.
TONIGHT.
sweet fancy moses.
if anyone else is going to be attending Asylum 4 this weekend, well, APPARENTLY SO AM I. AGAIN. last minute like whoah. but feel free to chat it up if you see me there! i'll be that weirdo in the blue and brown bunnyhat, just like last year ^___^ probably running around helping staff <3
hopefully, my art will be there too, but that depends on whether or not they listened to me this time about printers screwing things up. Cause that never happens, amirite?
wdghjklghlqeg i'm so not ready for this x_x FLYING. DO NOT WANT.
AND OF COURSE I'M MISSING THE SPN SEASON FINALE. OF COURSE. DAMNITALL.
anyone who spoils me gets stabbed, i'm not even kidding.
i have a ton of replies to leave for the kittenCas!fic i wrote for the Dean/Cas exchange (yeah, that was totally me. i'm not ashamed, i can admit it) buuuuut slightly distracted. long work days and crazy tiems had to make up for the time i'm taking off, so yeah. internet, que?
i'll get around to it, promise. :)
cause i'm leeeeeavin, on a jet plane. i don't know when i'll be back again...(monday, actually.)
so, in ironic news, after fighting with the apartment office and being obnoxiously belittled by the suits who think i don't know my ass from my elbow, i have air conditioning. \o/
which, of course, means that the entirety of this week was a balmy 60 degrees or so, and i never once turned it on.
of course.
but, as M reassures me, its the principle of the thing, and i don't regret putting my foot down. they're doing the second bed bug spray this weekend and all my crap is moved all over the place again so that they can get it over with. if this happens again though, my neighbors are getting an H2SO4 care package. complete with bow. cause i'm sweet like that.
In awesometime news, things aren't sucking as much anymore. WHICH IS GREAT, LEMME TELL YOU.
I took my mother to King's Dominion over the weekend for a nice change of pace to mother's day and had the most amazing time in the history of amazing. no, really, i can challenge this. For those of you who know me, or have been following along with my recent surgery and weight loss struggles, one of the biggest things i've wanted to be able to do is ride as many roller coasters as i can. not because i just barely fit in them and can, but because of the strength of my courage. and last weekend? there wasn't a single coaster i didn't fit in. so i got to pick them according to whether or not i'd chicken out instead of the size of my ass.
it was, in short, UNBELIEVABLE. i was beside myself at just how easy it was to fit in and just be normal, for once in my life. i loved it so damn much, and was grateful that i made it through the entire day without once bawling like a little girl when i found out (at least til i got home, lol. stupid chick flick moments) after all the years of going with M and her family to amusement parks and just wishing and hoping that i could ride everything with her without having to do that horrifying walk of shame, i finally got to do EXACTLY THAT.
and there are no words to describe how grateful i am. if i never lose another pound, i will be happy being just...normal sized, for the rest of my life. i don't wanna be a stick, i just want to blend. and i did, and it was wonderful. no one stared at me, barely anyone even knew i was standing there and i LOVED IT. <3
aaaaaand finally, in other news:
I'm going to London.
TONIGHT.
sweet fancy moses.
if anyone else is going to be attending Asylum 4 this weekend, well, APPARENTLY SO AM I. AGAIN. last minute like whoah. but feel free to chat it up if you see me there! i'll be that weirdo in the blue and brown bunnyhat, just like last year ^___^ probably running around helping staff <3
hopefully, my art will be there too, but that depends on whether or not they listened to me this time about printers screwing things up. Cause that never happens, amirite?
wdghjklghlqeg i'm so not ready for this x_x FLYING. DO NOT WANT.
AND OF COURSE I'M MISSING THE SPN SEASON FINALE. OF COURSE. DAMNITALL.
anyone who spoils me gets stabbed, i'm not even kidding.
i have a ton of replies to leave for the kittenCas!fic i wrote for the Dean/Cas exchange (yeah, that was totally me. i'm not ashamed, i can admit it) buuuuut slightly distracted. long work days and crazy tiems had to make up for the time i'm taking off, so yeah. internet, que?
i'll get around to it, promise. :)
cause i'm leeeeeavin, on a jet plane. i don't know when i'll be back again...(monday, actually.)
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!
Mar. 8th, 2010 11:38 pmI FINISHED IT.
aaauuugghhh finally x_x after far too much delay and way too much last minute desperation, I finished the secret angels fic exchange story for the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
deancastiel com and i am DONE. D.U.N.
thanks SO friggen much to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
morgainlefay for the last minute beta too. i owe you woman, srsly.
maybe next time i'll actually write something short? i dunno. sounds difficult.
Back from a long weekend of drama and mayhem in Richmond with the Mad Kat crew, and despite the crazy amounts of unnecessary, it was also a fairly decent weekend. I really liked the Alice movie :3 honestly.
i know a lot of people are hatin on it, and me being a movie fanatic i probably should hold a bit more of an opinion than i do, but to be completely honest, i really did just like it for what it was. and that was FUN. it's a movie to make you smile, make your head tilt and fill your irises with information that isn't supposed to make sense. which it does, at different times for different people, i noticed. if you can get over the stupid hype, the big names, and try not to compare it to either the books or previous movies (general knowledge of Looking Glass aside), its very easy to slip into the movie and simply find it fascinating. Which i did, so i was not disappointed.
That, and Christopher fucking Lee as the Jabberwock. Heyall yes. i lamented his lack of dialogue once introduced.
I wouldn't mind seeing it again, but of course, i'd still like to see Shutter Island again X) silly poor E, why do you have no moneys?
CLASH OF THE TITANS NEXT MONTH. I AM ALREADY THERE.
what SUCKED about the movie (or at least the time around when we watched it), was the strangely ironic incident that took place afterwards where gravity saw fit to trip me up the stairs. i went headfirst into a gaggle of humans, but not until after slamming my knee into the cement steps, straight across the bone.
ouch.
oh sorry, i meant ouuuuuccccchhhhhh.
got a great big nasty bruise for my troubles too >.< damnitall.
the girls took me shopping, or as they called it, retail therapy. which is an odd and somewhat frightening concept to me, to be honest. (maybe because i worked so much retail and the idea seems hysterical? i dunno) it was fun though, and just a bit strange considering how well i fit into things now that look as if i shouldn't. and i mean, srsly look like they shouldn't. like they'd fit a doll or something.
i am no closer to getting used to the way i look now than i was a few months ago. and its still going too. i lost another five pounds this week. yeesh.
and i still keep pulling on some of my bigger clothes everyso often just for the slightest bit of normalcy that i don't see anymore. it's all in my head, and i know it, but when there's the image of something familiar in your head, something you've known all your life and expect to see whenever you look for it...but now its not there? you kinda freak out a little.
So yeah. there's that.
but looking nice is, dare i say, fun. didn't get to do much of that when i was younger.
ugh, far too little sleep i need to catch up on z_z so far, March hasn't been all that unforgiving yet...but it did just start. I'm staying cautiously optimistic. and not looking forward to wednesday at all.
Distractions. I needs them. Maybe i'll trick myself into desperately writing something again XD cause shit that was distracting x__x
aaauuugghhh finally x_x after far too much delay and way too much last minute desperation, I finished the secret angels fic exchange story for the
deancastiel com and i am DONE. D.U.N.thanks SO friggen much to
morgainlefay for the last minute beta too. i owe you woman, srsly.maybe next time i'll actually write something short? i dunno. sounds difficult.
Back from a long weekend of drama and mayhem in Richmond with the Mad Kat crew, and despite the crazy amounts of unnecessary, it was also a fairly decent weekend. I really liked the Alice movie :3 honestly.
i know a lot of people are hatin on it, and me being a movie fanatic i probably should hold a bit more of an opinion than i do, but to be completely honest, i really did just like it for what it was. and that was FUN. it's a movie to make you smile, make your head tilt and fill your irises with information that isn't supposed to make sense. which it does, at different times for different people, i noticed. if you can get over the stupid hype, the big names, and try not to compare it to either the books or previous movies (general knowledge of Looking Glass aside), its very easy to slip into the movie and simply find it fascinating. Which i did, so i was not disappointed.
That, and Christopher fucking Lee as the Jabberwock. Heyall yes. i lamented his lack of dialogue once introduced.
I wouldn't mind seeing it again, but of course, i'd still like to see Shutter Island again X) silly poor E, why do you have no moneys?
CLASH OF THE TITANS NEXT MONTH. I AM ALREADY THERE.
what SUCKED about the movie (or at least the time around when we watched it), was the strangely ironic incident that took place afterwards where gravity saw fit to trip me up the stairs. i went headfirst into a gaggle of humans, but not until after slamming my knee into the cement steps, straight across the bone.
ouch.
oh sorry, i meant ouuuuuccccchhhhhh.
got a great big nasty bruise for my troubles too >.< damnitall.
the girls took me shopping, or as they called it, retail therapy. which is an odd and somewhat frightening concept to me, to be honest. (maybe because i worked so much retail and the idea seems hysterical? i dunno) it was fun though, and just a bit strange considering how well i fit into things now that look as if i shouldn't. and i mean, srsly look like they shouldn't. like they'd fit a doll or something.
i am no closer to getting used to the way i look now than i was a few months ago. and its still going too. i lost another five pounds this week. yeesh.
and i still keep pulling on some of my bigger clothes everyso often just for the slightest bit of normalcy that i don't see anymore. it's all in my head, and i know it, but when there's the image of something familiar in your head, something you've known all your life and expect to see whenever you look for it...but now its not there? you kinda freak out a little.
So yeah. there's that.
but looking nice is, dare i say, fun. didn't get to do much of that when i was younger.
ugh, far too little sleep i need to catch up on z_z so far, March hasn't been all that unforgiving yet...but it did just start. I'm staying cautiously optimistic. and not looking forward to wednesday at all.
Distractions. I needs them. Maybe i'll trick myself into desperately writing something again XD cause shit that was distracting x__x
Cause i want in your pants, that's why
Feb. 2nd, 2010 01:48 pmSo at lunch today, more out of curiosity than anything else, i stopped by Old Navy since its been more than obvious lately that my pants no longer fit. old navy ain't the greatest when it comes to curvy humans, but i figured a ball park would work well enough regardless and i'd know what i was working with.
In highschool, i wore a size 26/28 jeans.
Today I pulled on a size 16.
I've lost a total, to date, of 73 lbs X) GAH.
(that's since surgery on 9/16/09)
there are no words for either my utter glee or my insatiable disbelief, lol.
now if only i could AFFORD new pants, then i'd be in business. *mental note to find self a belt* damnit. anybody got any size 16's laying around they don't want anymore? 8D (as long as you're over 5'5", i'll take em)
in other news, my apartment has heat (WOO \o/) but my stove doesn't work and i'm still sick. *sniffles*
but my mood has improved tremendously thanks to an awesome weekend with an awesome boyfriend <3
as soon as i get myself really settled and comfortable in the new place, much arting will be had once again! oh, and internets, must get internets. i wanna kill me some zombies.
In highschool, i wore a size 26/28 jeans.
Today I pulled on a size 16.
I've lost a total, to date, of 73 lbs X) GAH.
(that's since surgery on 9/16/09)
there are no words for either my utter glee or my insatiable disbelief, lol.
now if only i could AFFORD new pants, then i'd be in business. *mental note to find self a belt* damnit. anybody got any size 16's laying around they don't want anymore? 8D (as long as you're over 5'5", i'll take em)
in other news, my apartment has heat (WOO \o/) but my stove doesn't work and i'm still sick. *sniffles*
but my mood has improved tremendously thanks to an awesome weekend with an awesome boyfriend <3
as soon as i get myself really settled and comfortable in the new place, much arting will be had once again! oh, and internets, must get internets. i wanna kill me some zombies.
waitaminute...
Dec. 4th, 2009 04:08 pmmy day just got SO much better.
(omg, two posts in one day)
went for my daily walk out in the parking garage and just randomly found out that i can run.
I CAN RUN.
icanrunicanrunicanrunicaunicanRUN and it doesn't hurt!!! \o/ no stomach holding, no pain, no awkwardness, no asthma.
just...running.
not for very long, cause i'm not used to it yet and i'll need more knee strength to maintain, but still.
if i can run, i can jump.
and if i can jump, i can dance.
and DDR.
8D
(omg, two posts in one day)
went for my daily walk out in the parking garage and just randomly found out that i can run.
I CAN RUN.
icanrunicanrunicanrunicaunicanRUN and it doesn't hurt!!! \o/ no stomach holding, no pain, no awkwardness, no asthma.
just...running.
not for very long, cause i'm not used to it yet and i'll need more knee strength to maintain, but still.
if i can run, i can jump.
and if i can jump, i can dance.
and DDR.
8D
souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Dec. 1st, 2009 01:08 pmso hey, how bout a real entry this time.
( post surgery stuffs, some slightly TMI )
in other news, no Supernatural til January :( still working on the fifty things i gotta finish drawing, coloring and otherwise FINISHING for people (but am happy to be inspired regardless)
gotta apartment hunt very friggen soon, so i'm moving NEXT MONTH. WHUT.
CHRISTMAS SHOPPING. ACK.
x___x
i cannot believe it's December.
( post surgery stuffs, some slightly TMI )
in other news, no Supernatural til January :( still working on the fifty things i gotta finish drawing, coloring and otherwise FINISHING for people (but am happy to be inspired regardless)
gotta apartment hunt very friggen soon, so i'm moving NEXT MONTH. WHUT.
CHRISTMAS SHOPPING. ACK.
x___x
i cannot believe it's December.
don't bend, don't break
Oct. 15th, 2009 12:07 amOog this week X__x
so far, i'm halfway through my first week of being officially back to work. full days and everything. hasn't been as difficult as i thought it was going to be, though there's been some juggling about what to do with figuring out the protein shakes i need to get in, along with taking lunch everyday. i never did that before, but hey, whatever's easy on the wallet, right?
on the other hand, because of all the protein i've been taking in (not to mention the still healing thing) i can only go for about two hours before i HAVE TO GET UP and walk around or something. I used to be able to go a full day without getting up from my desk for anything aside from food or bathroom. it's weird actually having energy. totally not angry about this, tho i gotta make sure i still get my work done in the process, lol.
eating is still weird. but peanut butter no longer hates me. HUZZAH.
Zombieland is my new favorite movie. no, srsly. totally gonna be a zombie for Halloween X3
was having kind of a blah day today which ended with me picking up my mail and finding a bill for the hospital that's around $600 :( which, unfortunately i knew was coming, it just wasn't nice to see.
HOWEVER, i then proceeded to open the rest of my mail which included a check from my insurance for the short term disability for work (SCORE) along with a letter from where i bought my car telling me they got my final payment.
the car, my Gabe, he's officially all mine.
8D
OH HAI SILVER LINING
that, and hanging out with friends tonight cheered me up immensely. if only my scar hadn't been hurting all stupid day. how very harry potter of me.
despite everything tho, i've been in pretty high spirits throughout everything. i have my bad days, but i've been more positive lately than i have in YEARS. <3
hurray for thursday! and for the weekend, looking forward to hanging with moar friends and being outdoorsy. should prove interesting, especially since i'm GETTING A PUMPKIN. WOO!
*dances* it's that time of year again!! *gleeeeee*
now if only this friggen Steampunk picture i've been drawing for the Dean/Cas fusion thinger would just ink it's own damn self e__e as much as i missed being a detail whore and have been having way too much fun steampunking the Imapala...aaauuuggghhh innnkkkinnnggg
speaking of steampunk, i've got a costume pulled together for Nekocon that i'm totally gonna sport. 8D stupid, nerdy excited doesn't even begin to cover it.
so far, i'm halfway through my first week of being officially back to work. full days and everything. hasn't been as difficult as i thought it was going to be, though there's been some juggling about what to do with figuring out the protein shakes i need to get in, along with taking lunch everyday. i never did that before, but hey, whatever's easy on the wallet, right?
on the other hand, because of all the protein i've been taking in (not to mention the still healing thing) i can only go for about two hours before i HAVE TO GET UP and walk around or something. I used to be able to go a full day without getting up from my desk for anything aside from food or bathroom. it's weird actually having energy. totally not angry about this, tho i gotta make sure i still get my work done in the process, lol.
eating is still weird. but peanut butter no longer hates me. HUZZAH.
Zombieland is my new favorite movie. no, srsly. totally gonna be a zombie for Halloween X3
was having kind of a blah day today which ended with me picking up my mail and finding a bill for the hospital that's around $600 :( which, unfortunately i knew was coming, it just wasn't nice to see.
HOWEVER, i then proceeded to open the rest of my mail which included a check from my insurance for the short term disability for work (SCORE) along with a letter from where i bought my car telling me they got my final payment.
the car, my Gabe, he's officially all mine.
8D
OH HAI SILVER LINING
that, and hanging out with friends tonight cheered me up immensely. if only my scar hadn't been hurting all stupid day. how very harry potter of me.
despite everything tho, i've been in pretty high spirits throughout everything. i have my bad days, but i've been more positive lately than i have in YEARS. <3
hurray for thursday! and for the weekend, looking forward to hanging with moar friends and being outdoorsy. should prove interesting, especially since i'm GETTING A PUMPKIN. WOO!
*dances* it's that time of year again!! *gleeeeee*
now if only this friggen Steampunk picture i've been drawing for the Dean/Cas fusion thinger would just ink it's own damn self e__e as much as i missed being a detail whore and have been having way too much fun steampunking the Imapala...aaauuuggghhh innnkkkinnnggg
speaking of steampunk, i've got a costume pulled together for Nekocon that i'm totally gonna sport. 8D stupid, nerdy excited doesn't even begin to cover it.
almost still kickin...
Oct. 2nd, 2009 09:01 pmoh hai gaiz! :D
sorry for the internet silence lately. i didn't mean to worry anyone, I've just had a week of no internet (oh the horrors), and have been trying to get myself to do other things with the time i have off from work. not that i can do much, but it's the principle of the thing. of which, i actually go back to work next wednesday ^_^ not a bad thing, i'm kinda looking forward to rejoining the rest of the world. and feeling better, that would be awesome too.
still healing, still getting used to all this new stuff and goings on with me. my brain and my body aren't all too happy with each other right now, but we're workin on it. sleeping still kinda sux mainly because i sleep mostly on my stomach, and seeing as there's a great big incision there, that's kinda not happening yet. tho my staples are out, and they told me that everything is looking great :3 so yay! no infections plz k thnx. they also told me i had already lost 13 lbs, but that was last thursday so i haven't a clue about now.
i stopped taking the pain meds two days ago, so i can officially drive again *glee*
eating is...weird. my meals are very small and are limited to things that can be thoroughly turned to mush before swallowed. no sugar. i'm on a timed schedule to help me with everything since i don't really get hungry yet, and i'm in almost a constant state of drinking. otherwise, it's not too bad. i started out thinking i would be hungrier with so little, but my stomach really IS that small now. bizarre.
eating out isn't so hard either. i sure as shit spend less.
but all in all i'm ok :3 i get exhausted really quickly, unfortunately, because i'm still not yet used to how little fuel i'm taking in. i'm also tired most of the time simply because sleeping is such a chore. laughing and sneezing don't hurt as bad as they did before (srsly, first time i sneezed after surgery, i was in tears, omg) tho i still have to hold my stomach when doing so, lol. each day is better than the one before, so that's a plus.
i've had a shitload of support. from both family and my friends and i love you all for it and cannot thankyou all enough. for those who came long distances to see me right up with those who are down the road and haven't stopped coming, i <3 u guys so fucking much.
the next few months are gonna be interesting.
on the plus side, i've found some mojo for drawing/coloring and FINALLY finished withtracy_loo_who's bday present (woo!) apologies for it being so late darlin! but a very merry belated birthday to you <3 hope you likes ^__^
warning, snuggling angel/man love. you heard me.
( HERE TRACE, HAVE ART )
ohhhh, also also, so, there was this fantastic fic i read in the renegade angel exchange on the dean/cas comm that was incredibly impactful to me and inspired a picture that forced me to do *gasp* a background AND perspective. WHUT.
the fic is called In the Silence After, is an apocalypse fic, and is gut-wrenchingly sad, but VERY well written. (dunno who wrote it yet!) i love this kind of inspiration.
so the pic actually came out kinda awesome and i was really proud of it what with the hatching fun tiems and all. BUT. EVEN BETTER.aesc agreed to do a collab with me on it and proceeded to work her magic and make it SO MUCH MORE AWESOME.
She posted it in her journal here
(sorry for leeching your link hon) and i srsly love what an amazing job she did. I LOVE COLLABS. SO.MUCH.FUN.
oh, and for the record? I love my show. srsly, srsly gaiz, apocalypse and sorta!zombies ftw. now one of my fav episodes and it was written by the creator of The Tic. I LOVE THIS. (SO MANY L4D REFS. I THINK BEN EDLUND PLAYS IT. gawd i miss that game ;.;)
and damnitfauxfaia, why'd i listen to you and watch Glee? cause now i can't.friggen.stop o_o
sorry for the internet silence lately. i didn't mean to worry anyone, I've just had a week of no internet (oh the horrors), and have been trying to get myself to do other things with the time i have off from work. not that i can do much, but it's the principle of the thing. of which, i actually go back to work next wednesday ^_^ not a bad thing, i'm kinda looking forward to rejoining the rest of the world. and feeling better, that would be awesome too.
still healing, still getting used to all this new stuff and goings on with me. my brain and my body aren't all too happy with each other right now, but we're workin on it. sleeping still kinda sux mainly because i sleep mostly on my stomach, and seeing as there's a great big incision there, that's kinda not happening yet. tho my staples are out, and they told me that everything is looking great :3 so yay! no infections plz k thnx. they also told me i had already lost 13 lbs, but that was last thursday so i haven't a clue about now.
i stopped taking the pain meds two days ago, so i can officially drive again *glee*
eating is...weird. my meals are very small and are limited to things that can be thoroughly turned to mush before swallowed. no sugar. i'm on a timed schedule to help me with everything since i don't really get hungry yet, and i'm in almost a constant state of drinking. otherwise, it's not too bad. i started out thinking i would be hungrier with so little, but my stomach really IS that small now. bizarre.
eating out isn't so hard either. i sure as shit spend less.
but all in all i'm ok :3 i get exhausted really quickly, unfortunately, because i'm still not yet used to how little fuel i'm taking in. i'm also tired most of the time simply because sleeping is such a chore. laughing and sneezing don't hurt as bad as they did before (srsly, first time i sneezed after surgery, i was in tears, omg) tho i still have to hold my stomach when doing so, lol. each day is better than the one before, so that's a plus.
i've had a shitload of support. from both family and my friends and i love you all for it and cannot thankyou all enough. for those who came long distances to see me right up with those who are down the road and haven't stopped coming, i <3 u guys so fucking much.
the next few months are gonna be interesting.
on the plus side, i've found some mojo for drawing/coloring and FINALLY finished with
tracy_loo_who's bday present (woo!) apologies for it being so late darlin! but a very merry belated birthday to you <3 hope you likes ^__^warning, snuggling angel/man love. you heard me.
( HERE TRACE, HAVE ART )
ohhhh, also also, so, there was this fantastic fic i read in the renegade angel exchange on the dean/cas comm that was incredibly impactful to me and inspired a picture that forced me to do *gasp* a background AND perspective. WHUT.
the fic is called In the Silence After, is an apocalypse fic, and is gut-wrenchingly sad, but VERY well written. (dunno who wrote it yet!) i love this kind of inspiration.
so the pic actually came out kinda awesome and i was really proud of it what with the hatching fun tiems and all. BUT. EVEN BETTER.
aesc agreed to do a collab with me on it and proceeded to work her magic and make it SO MUCH MORE AWESOME. She posted it in her journal here
(sorry for leeching your link hon) and i srsly love what an amazing job she did. I LOVE COLLABS. SO.MUCH.FUN.
oh, and for the record? I love my show. srsly, srsly gaiz, apocalypse and sorta!zombies ftw. now one of my fav episodes and it was written by the creator of The Tic. I LOVE THIS. (SO MANY L4D REFS. I THINK BEN EDLUND PLAYS IT. gawd i miss that game ;.;)
and damnit
fauxfaia, why'd i listen to you and watch Glee? cause now i can't.friggen.stop o_ojust lettin you all know
Sep. 19th, 2009 02:24 pmJust dropping a quick note on here to let everyone know that I am ok :3
i'm home from the hospital, with my mom taking care of me, and so far so good. aside from it being really damn painful (duh), everything is fine. they told me at the hospital that i was doing better than normal and aside from my oxygen levels having issues, there were no problems they were concerned over.
thankyou everyone for your emails, your comments, txts and calls. i appreciate it all more than you'd ever believe <3 truly.
haven't been taking many visitors, but that's just cause i'm grumpy and achy and i keep falling asleep. lol. it'll get better as the days go, then i can start seeing people again, promise.
love you all!
(and i have some really awesome scars, btw. mwahaha)
<3
i'm home from the hospital, with my mom taking care of me, and so far so good. aside from it being really damn painful (duh), everything is fine. they told me at the hospital that i was doing better than normal and aside from my oxygen levels having issues, there were no problems they were concerned over.
thankyou everyone for your emails, your comments, txts and calls. i appreciate it all more than you'd ever believe <3 truly.
haven't been taking many visitors, but that's just cause i'm grumpy and achy and i keep falling asleep. lol. it'll get better as the days go, then i can start seeing people again, promise.
love you all!
(and i have some really awesome scars, btw. mwahaha)
<3
wake me when it's over
Sep. 15th, 2009 05:47 pmthe obligatory 'night before' post, i guess.
wow, that kinda rushed up on me. yikes.
So tomorrow i go into the hospital for an open RNY surgical procedure (aka, gastric bypass). i'll be there for three days, two nights, so long as everything comes out ok and i'm doing ok. then i come home and will be off work having the crappiest three week vacation in the history of ever.
its gonna hurt, i have no allusions to think otherwise. but hey, getting shot would be worse. (i assume)
my mother is coming to stay with me til sunday, which has its pluses and minuses really x_x i love that i'll have someone to help me that i trust (and don't feel so bad asking for help) but on the other hand...it's my mother. she can't help but send my anxiety through the roof, it never fails, and she's going to bend over backwards to make sure everything is done according to her methods of healing. which is gonna drive me batshit by friday, i'm betting. drugs or not.
but anyway, i'm ok. :3 am keeping positive, and not really planning things to a tee cause really, it's easier if i don't. nothing's going to go right to plan, and that's ok. i'll work with whatever. i've been very VERY lucky that i have some of the best friends a human could ever ask for <3 srsly, there's no way in hell i would have gotten through this month without an ulcer or a hemorrhage or something if not for my buddies, and i love you guys so fucking much because of that. *gush*
happytemplar deserves a fucking medal for dealing with my crappy moods. srsly.
if i don't make it, you guys get first dibs to pillage my shit. tho cremate me with my markers, damnit.
i'm pretty sure i'll make it through ok. i've got a good Doc, all the tests say i'm 100% healthy (which i totally didn't believe, lol, but someone with a doctorate says so, it must be true). i'm young and i do pretty good with teh healing from past experience (considering how accident prone i am). i really do think i'm gonna be ok :3
but don't get me wrong, there will be plenty of bitching to come.
tl;dr, this month sucked, surgery is soon, and i'll come back online next week and let everyone know i'm still alive X) promise.
and i have cleverly ended this otherwise bland and depressing post with random art, just to fool you! (warning, kinda big and cartoony)
( HA, TAKE THAT )
anywho, i'm gonna spend the rest of the evening distracting myself, pretending to be productive and preparing for when my mother arrives x_x SO MUCH FUN, I TELL YOU.
Everyone stay classy til i get back. <3
i mean it, i expect the awesome to wait til i return. e.e
wow, that kinda rushed up on me. yikes.
So tomorrow i go into the hospital for an open RNY surgical procedure (aka, gastric bypass). i'll be there for three days, two nights, so long as everything comes out ok and i'm doing ok. then i come home and will be off work having the crappiest three week vacation in the history of ever.
its gonna hurt, i have no allusions to think otherwise. but hey, getting shot would be worse. (i assume)
my mother is coming to stay with me til sunday, which has its pluses and minuses really x_x i love that i'll have someone to help me that i trust (and don't feel so bad asking for help) but on the other hand...it's my mother. she can't help but send my anxiety through the roof, it never fails, and she's going to bend over backwards to make sure everything is done according to her methods of healing. which is gonna drive me batshit by friday, i'm betting. drugs or not.
but anyway, i'm ok. :3 am keeping positive, and not really planning things to a tee cause really, it's easier if i don't. nothing's going to go right to plan, and that's ok. i'll work with whatever. i've been very VERY lucky that i have some of the best friends a human could ever ask for <3 srsly, there's no way in hell i would have gotten through this month without an ulcer or a hemorrhage or something if not for my buddies, and i love you guys so fucking much because of that. *gush*
happytemplar deserves a fucking medal for dealing with my crappy moods. srsly.if i don't make it, you guys get first dibs to pillage my shit. tho cremate me with my markers, damnit.
i'm pretty sure i'll make it through ok. i've got a good Doc, all the tests say i'm 100% healthy (which i totally didn't believe, lol, but someone with a doctorate says so, it must be true). i'm young and i do pretty good with teh healing from past experience (considering how accident prone i am). i really do think i'm gonna be ok :3
but don't get me wrong, there will be plenty of bitching to come.
tl;dr, this month sucked, surgery is soon, and i'll come back online next week and let everyone know i'm still alive X) promise.
and i have cleverly ended this otherwise bland and depressing post with random art, just to fool you! (warning, kinda big and cartoony)
( HA, TAKE THAT )
anywho, i'm gonna spend the rest of the evening distracting myself, pretending to be productive and preparing for when my mother arrives x_x SO MUCH FUN, I TELL YOU.
Everyone stay classy til i get back. <3
i mean it, i expect the awesome to wait til i return. e.e
I know it's kind of obvious how desperate I've been to distract myself lately, but this is just going to be another one of those things that I need to share.
http://inbflat.net/
do please check it out and play, preferably if you've got headphones or speakers available. this has gotta be one of the more beautiful things i've come across on the internet <3
my next week is filled with doctor's appointments, an attempt to put everything in order that i'll need for before and after surgery, and basically trying to keep my head on my shoulders. (along with cleaning before my mother gets here) i've gotten to the point that i get sick almost every day now, but thankfully i know its just nerves and not a virus or anything. just too much to think about.
writing and drawing have been practically nonexistent, but it doesn't stop me from trying.
gawd i am so friggen tired.
but i'm ok :3 truly.
13 days til surgery.
and 7 days til supernatural. oh boy!
http://inbflat.net/
do please check it out and play, preferably if you've got headphones or speakers available. this has gotta be one of the more beautiful things i've come across on the internet <3
my next week is filled with doctor's appointments, an attempt to put everything in order that i'll need for before and after surgery, and basically trying to keep my head on my shoulders. (along with cleaning before my mother gets here) i've gotten to the point that i get sick almost every day now, but thankfully i know its just nerves and not a virus or anything. just too much to think about.
writing and drawing have been practically nonexistent, but it doesn't stop me from trying.
gawd i am so friggen tired.
but i'm ok :3 truly.
13 days til surgery.
and 7 days til supernatural. oh boy!
i have a date
Aug. 13th, 2009 02:54 pmSeptember 16
that will be the date of my surgery.
the insurance approved me yesterday (FINALLY. AUGH) and the doc office called me today. thus, i have my date.
holyfriggencrap
i am DOING this.
that will be the date of my surgery.
the insurance approved me yesterday (FINALLY. AUGH) and the doc office called me today. thus, i have my date.
holyfriggencrap
i am DOING this.
WLS update
Aug. 4th, 2009 07:22 pmSo I've officially done all I can do for Pre-Auth.
Of the list of three big things the insurance demanded of me, I just completed the third. They will all be sending their collected info to the insurance, which will then be put in for process and consideration. Then they contact the doc's office, who then contacts me and gives me further instructions. and a *date. (*that's important)
so now i wait.
@____________@
so...if i'm more annoying than usual the next couple of weeks...there's a reason.
although this waiting thing means that the possibility still remains that i can go to AWA in September. hmm...we shall see. i didn't go last year, so i kinda sorta wanted to for this one ;.;
during the psych eval, when asked what i do to avoid the extreme ups and downs with depression and anxiety and whatnot (especially after surgery), i told her that i do so with distraction. with friends, with art, with writing, and with fandom. tho i don't think she really understand what that was XD
thanks everybody for all the support you've given me thus far :3 i will never be able to express how much that means to me <3 ILU GAIZ. i'll continue to update randomly, especially once i get that *date.
gawd, here's hoping.
lulz, i need to go get a MAGIC BULLET
oh, and since i got tired of waiting for other people to decide what i can and can't change about myself...i died my hair. it is now black and blue. feel free to make bruise jokes, tho i've heard most of them already X)
CARRY ON.
ETA: OH, ALSO. WHO AMONGST MY NEARBY FRIENDS/ASSOCIATES/ENEMIES ARE IN NEED OF CUPS?? I have too many, they must go! and it's either trash, or someone else's cupboard. anyone?? both mugs and plastic.
Of the list of three big things the insurance demanded of me, I just completed the third. They will all be sending their collected info to the insurance, which will then be put in for process and consideration. Then they contact the doc's office, who then contacts me and gives me further instructions. and a *date. (*that's important)
so now i wait.
@____________@
so...if i'm more annoying than usual the next couple of weeks...there's a reason.
although this waiting thing means that the possibility still remains that i can go to AWA in September. hmm...we shall see. i didn't go last year, so i kinda sorta wanted to for this one ;.;
during the psych eval, when asked what i do to avoid the extreme ups and downs with depression and anxiety and whatnot (especially after surgery), i told her that i do so with distraction. with friends, with art, with writing, and with fandom. tho i don't think she really understand what that was XD
thanks everybody for all the support you've given me thus far :3 i will never be able to express how much that means to me <3 ILU GAIZ. i'll continue to update randomly, especially once i get that *date.
gawd, here's hoping.
lulz, i need to go get a MAGIC BULLET
oh, and since i got tired of waiting for other people to decide what i can and can't change about myself...i died my hair. it is now black and blue. feel free to make bruise jokes, tho i've heard most of them already X)
CARRY ON.
ETA: OH, ALSO. WHO AMONGST MY NEARBY FRIENDS/ASSOCIATES/ENEMIES ARE IN NEED OF CUPS?? I have too many, they must go! and it's either trash, or someone else's cupboard. anyone?? both mugs and plastic.
So far so good...
Jul. 28th, 2009 08:09 pmWent in today for the first half of my psych evaluation for my surgery. I already knew the doc from before, and she was more than happy to help me out with it, as it's simply mindless questions about whether or not I'm sane. bah, easy enough.
what was cool tho, was that months ago i had told her about the trip i was gonna take to London, and why. She asked how it went, and i had brought some pics with me to show her.
me: *shows her group shot from asylum* so these are all the crazies i had to draw.
doc: oh great! *looks* wow...and they're all on tv, right?
me: yup. all on the one show.
doc: so...wow, so is it an important part of the show that they're all so good looking?
me: heh, i'm just gonna go with yes.
doc: no kidding...i just...wow, that one is REALLY good looking *points to Misha* is he supposed to for his character?
me: yeah, i'm going with yes for that too.
mwahaha. THE POWER OF THE MISHA IS LIMITED TO NO PROFESSION.
GenPrac apt on friday, then the other half of the psych stuff next tues. soooo cloooooooose...
OH, andtracy_loo_who! i am SO sorry i'm taking forever getting my story to you for beta help x___x i swear i'll finish this week so you've got time! AUGH, RL.
:EDIT: sdjkgk;laskjg forgot to mention! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHADRA!!! ILU U OLD TARD.
what was cool tho, was that months ago i had told her about the trip i was gonna take to London, and why. She asked how it went, and i had brought some pics with me to show her.
me: *shows her group shot from asylum* so these are all the crazies i had to draw.
doc: oh great! *looks* wow...and they're all on tv, right?
me: yup. all on the one show.
doc: so...wow, so is it an important part of the show that they're all so good looking?
me: heh, i'm just gonna go with yes.
doc: no kidding...i just...wow, that one is REALLY good looking *points to Misha* is he supposed to for his character?
me: yeah, i'm going with yes for that too.
mwahaha. THE POWER OF THE MISHA IS LIMITED TO NO PROFESSION.
GenPrac apt on friday, then the other half of the psych stuff next tues. soooo cloooooooose...
OH, and
tracy_loo_who! i am SO sorry i'm taking forever getting my story to you for beta help x___x i swear i'll finish this week so you've got time! AUGH, RL.:EDIT: sdjkgk;laskjg forgot to mention! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHADRA!!! ILU U OLD TARD.
Now that i'm consious...
Jun. 3rd, 2009 01:15 pmhello to new people!! you guys are in for a very boring time, sorry bout that XD i'm really not that interesting, promise.
I just slept for about twelve hours x__x
anyone know what day it is? i lost track last week.
my room is an amazing mess *laughs* it looks like i got home from vacation and just exploded.
feels like it too.
gonna have to go out eventually today and get some food, seeing as i have none. not that i'm really all that hungry. going for five days while barely eating and running all over the place can do that to you, lol. i told myself before the trip that all that dieting was so that i could eat whatever in the UK and enjoy myself, right?
totally lost five pounds while i was there. no wonder the plane seat was more comfortable on the way back. oops?
ugh, i need to start swearing off large fluffy kitties q.q my poor eyes and lungs.
Also need to go out and find myself a good 11x14 frame. i'm so proud of this picture, and that's kinda rare for me. not so much because i think it was done well, as to what it now represents to me <3 This is the picture that will be sent out to every one of the Asylum Attendees/Guests (or so i'm told, here's hoping) as it was supposed to be in the registration packets to begin with. Stupid printer was stupid, which is why they didn't arrive in time.
( Here it is, all signed and stuff, if anyone is interested )
I still can't stop smiling. it's making my face hurt but i don't care XD
now for some small shopping, lotso cleaning, and writing. probably not in that order.
I just slept for about twelve hours x__x
anyone know what day it is? i lost track last week.
my room is an amazing mess *laughs* it looks like i got home from vacation and just exploded.
feels like it too.
gonna have to go out eventually today and get some food, seeing as i have none. not that i'm really all that hungry. going for five days while barely eating and running all over the place can do that to you, lol. i told myself before the trip that all that dieting was so that i could eat whatever in the UK and enjoy myself, right?
totally lost five pounds while i was there. no wonder the plane seat was more comfortable on the way back. oops?
ugh, i need to start swearing off large fluffy kitties q.q my poor eyes and lungs.
Also need to go out and find myself a good 11x14 frame. i'm so proud of this picture, and that's kinda rare for me. not so much because i think it was done well, as to what it now represents to me <3 This is the picture that will be sent out to every one of the Asylum Attendees/Guests (or so i'm told, here's hoping) as it was supposed to be in the registration packets to begin with. Stupid printer was stupid, which is why they didn't arrive in time.
( Here it is, all signed and stuff, if anyone is interested )
I still can't stop smiling. it's making my face hurt but i don't care XD
now for some small shopping, lotso cleaning, and writing. probably not in that order.
galileo warns of impending doom
Apr. 26th, 2009 10:24 pmIt was a hundred degrees yesterday and today.
in APRIL.
and the a/c in my apartment is busted.
fuuuuuuuuuuuck
the Galileo thermometer on my desk has informed me that the current room setting is set on Hell.
Sleeping tonight is gonna be awesome.
on a better note, Video Games Live on saturday was AWESOME. I look forward to going again with my brothers in July.
ya know, july, when its supposed to be this hot. not april.
damnitall.
got my hair cut today :3 not much, but enough so that i'll be able to do Lexaeus without looking like a pineapple. just prioritizing for chicago.
i'm also down ten pounds. woo!
this would all be such a great weekend if not for the GODFORSAKENHEAT.
i want winter back ;.;
in APRIL.
and the a/c in my apartment is busted.
fuuuuuuuuuuuck
the Galileo thermometer on my desk has informed me that the current room setting is set on Hell.
Sleeping tonight is gonna be awesome.
on a better note, Video Games Live on saturday was AWESOME. I look forward to going again with my brothers in July.
ya know, july, when its supposed to be this hot. not april.
damnitall.
got my hair cut today :3 not much, but enough so that i'll be able to do Lexaeus without looking like a pineapple. just prioritizing for chicago.
i'm also down ten pounds. woo!
this would all be such a great weekend if not for the GODFORSAKENHEAT.
i want winter back ;.;
SO. ten more days til I leave for Florida.
yikes.
worked my butt off, but got all of the gift artwork done for the trip that i wanted to X) which is fabulous since the moment i finished, almost -immediately- my creativity took a nose dive. haven't drawn or colored a damn thing since. woe. but, again, glad to have gotten done what ineededwanted ^.^
still doesn't stop me from hesitating about this whole thing in general, but then, that's gonna be right up to the moment i try to hand the art over, methinks. yarr.
i'm looking forward to this like crazy, yet dreading it at the same time. wth. why did it have to be florida? XP and why am i such a DAMN CHICKEN?
aside from that? meh. days are passing.
pissing myself off diet-wise, which basically means i'm ignoring it. cause i'm a hyprocrite.
i have, however, been working out, so there's a plus at least. aside from the fact that it feels like i've been beat to hell every morning x.x ouch.
the new job's stressful, but what new job isn't? again, working through it as best i can.
i think i'm getting sick, but not in the painful way (thankgawd) just in the annoying way.
my roomies are evacuating for a trip to Georgia this coming Wednesday, so that'll be about four days of me on my own :o not that it'll make much of a difference, but meh. who knows? i might actually do some DDR now that i'm not afraid of my lungs spontaneously combusting like they threatened to do the last time i tried.
(WHICH, btw, i have only touched my inhaler but ONCE in the past three weeks. and it was only cause molly had just vacuumed, and dust is not a breathable substance)
whelp, regardless of just how much of an idiot i KNOW i'll make of myself when i head down to florida, i plan on chilling out and having a good time regardless X) the new Supernatural season starts this Thursday, and I have every intention of nerding to my hearts content.
so there.
i've been itching to draw my angels lately too. so here's hoping after this craziness has passed that i'll be inspired to draw once again :3
here's hoping.
yikes.
worked my butt off, but got all of the gift artwork done for the trip that i wanted to X) which is fabulous since the moment i finished, almost -immediately- my creativity took a nose dive. haven't drawn or colored a damn thing since. woe. but, again, glad to have gotten done what i
still doesn't stop me from hesitating about this whole thing in general, but then, that's gonna be right up to the moment i try to hand the art over, methinks. yarr.
i'm looking forward to this like crazy, yet dreading it at the same time. wth. why did it have to be florida? XP and why am i such a DAMN CHICKEN?
aside from that? meh. days are passing.
pissing myself off diet-wise, which basically means i'm ignoring it. cause i'm a hyprocrite.
i have, however, been working out, so there's a plus at least. aside from the fact that it feels like i've been beat to hell every morning x.x ouch.
the new job's stressful, but what new job isn't? again, working through it as best i can.
i think i'm getting sick, but not in the painful way (thankgawd) just in the annoying way.
my roomies are evacuating for a trip to Georgia this coming Wednesday, so that'll be about four days of me on my own :o not that it'll make much of a difference, but meh. who knows? i might actually do some DDR now that i'm not afraid of my lungs spontaneously combusting like they threatened to do the last time i tried.
(WHICH, btw, i have only touched my inhaler but ONCE in the past three weeks. and it was only cause molly had just vacuumed, and dust is not a breathable substance)
whelp, regardless of just how much of an idiot i KNOW i'll make of myself when i head down to florida, i plan on chilling out and having a good time regardless X) the new Supernatural season starts this Thursday, and I have every intention of nerding to my hearts content.
so there.
i've been itching to draw my angels lately too. so here's hoping after this craziness has passed that i'll be inspired to draw once again :3
here's hoping.
With fingernails that shine like justice
Jun. 29th, 2008 12:53 amugh, man. hellooo weekend.
don't get me wrong, i'm ok. and things could ALWAYS be worse. but there are weeks like this that make me glad to just be at the END of them. XP stress + anxiety + work = slightly frazzled.
i wonder sometimes if i run myself ragged on purpose just so i can have this sense of relief when it's over. i'm hope i'm not really that crazy.
*shakes it off*
So, all that crap aside, i made a big decision this week. (well, big for me) I'm going to go to Eyecon in September. which is a sci-fi, supernatural convention in florida. :O something i was back and forth about doing for a month or so before finally just giving up doing what i'd really like to do. and it really does kinda feel like karma with all of the events that led up to the decision :) which was cute, really. (i won't bore with the details, but it was very karma-ish)
so this means, that since Eyecon is only a week after Anime Weekend Atlanta, and there isn't a chance in hell of me taking the time off to attend both, i'll thus be forfeiting the trip to Georgia. It's a tough choice, since I feel kinda bad that the rest of Angel Jules Studios will be there, but I feel somehow that if I don't get myself to do this THIS year, then things won't ever fall into place as easily as they have now. so here's hoping :3
i'm a little nervous, however, as this will be the first convention i attend completely ON MY OWN. including the fact that there isn't really anyone i personally know attending. but oh well. what the hell, why not? if anything, it's something new, right? there won't always be people around to go with me to the places i'd like to see. *crosses fingers*
Still arting/drawing/coloring/being creative. Still generally being in good spirits and still back to working on the diet thing. i've pretty much lost most of what i gained back in my dumb little hiatus (which was nice to see that i could kick my own ass so well) so I intend on continuing to do so before i get my Olivier Armstrong costume together for Nekocon. we'll see how that pans out. i'm cautiously optimistic, but it comes and goes. living with junk food junkies doesn't really help x.x
the rollercoaster that was this week has somehow ended on such a not-so-assured thump at the end that it's left me wondering what could possibly come next.
yet the more i think about it, the more i really, really don't want to know.
OMG, WHY AM I STILL AWAKE. *poofs*
don't get me wrong, i'm ok. and things could ALWAYS be worse. but there are weeks like this that make me glad to just be at the END of them. XP stress + anxiety + work = slightly frazzled.
i wonder sometimes if i run myself ragged on purpose just so i can have this sense of relief when it's over. i'm hope i'm not really that crazy.
*shakes it off*
So, all that crap aside, i made a big decision this week. (well, big for me) I'm going to go to Eyecon in September. which is a sci-fi, supernatural convention in florida. :O something i was back and forth about doing for a month or so before finally just giving up doing what i'd really like to do. and it really does kinda feel like karma with all of the events that led up to the decision :) which was cute, really. (i won't bore with the details, but it was very karma-ish)
so this means, that since Eyecon is only a week after Anime Weekend Atlanta, and there isn't a chance in hell of me taking the time off to attend both, i'll thus be forfeiting the trip to Georgia. It's a tough choice, since I feel kinda bad that the rest of Angel Jules Studios will be there, but I feel somehow that if I don't get myself to do this THIS year, then things won't ever fall into place as easily as they have now. so here's hoping :3
i'm a little nervous, however, as this will be the first convention i attend completely ON MY OWN. including the fact that there isn't really anyone i personally know attending. but oh well. what the hell, why not? if anything, it's something new, right? there won't always be people around to go with me to the places i'd like to see. *crosses fingers*
Still arting/drawing/coloring/being creative. Still generally being in good spirits and still back to working on the diet thing. i've pretty much lost most of what i gained back in my dumb little hiatus (which was nice to see that i could kick my own ass so well) so I intend on continuing to do so before i get my Olivier Armstrong costume together for Nekocon. we'll see how that pans out. i'm cautiously optimistic, but it comes and goes. living with junk food junkies doesn't really help x.x
the rollercoaster that was this week has somehow ended on such a not-so-assured thump at the end that it's left me wondering what could possibly come next.
yet the more i think about it, the more i really, really don't want to know.
OMG, WHY AM I STILL AWAKE. *poofs*
'oh no no, we're very smart.'
May. 23rd, 2008 10:54 pmWhat American accent do you have?
Created by Xavier on Memegen.net
Created by Xavier on Memegen.net
Neutral. Not Northern, Southern, or Western, just American. Your national American identity is more important to you than your local identity, because you don't really have a local identity to begin with.
Take this quiz now - it's easy!
I dunno how I feel about that ._.
Yesterday, I was a happy fangirl X)
Molly and I went to the late showing of the new Indiana Jones movie (*insert happy squee*)
and yes. i squeed. i can admit it, i'm an adult. u.u
( here thar be spoilers )
all in all tho, i was very content with the overall movie. it was definately an Indy flick and i still love Harrison, even with all of the old jokes and his adorably grey head.
As soon as it's out on DVD. it shall be mine ^.^ i wanna see it in theaters again, but prices are crazy high. so since it took fifty bucks to fill my gas tank, splurges are a bit on the unreasonable side regardless ;.;
Am working straight til next weekend and am trying desperately to fit some kind of schedule in around it. not working all that well, but i'm getting there ^^; diet is back on, although i haven't really been able to afford going back to the doc so it's not as hardcore as it should be. don't get me wrong, i'm doing good, but i don't really have any of the medical help along the way :\ time will tell how well and how long i can do this myself.
My older bro still isn't speaking to me. he won't pick up the phone, or return my calls and i've heard nothing so far. which makes me both worried and sad. I've gotten james to try and help, but i can't predict anything yet.
:(
randomly broke out my colored pencils the other night and suddenly forgot why i'd put them away in the first place *LOVES* man did i miss this medium.
i'm still generally in good spirits. here's hoping i can keep them. :3
oh! and if anyone's interested, more videos were uploaded from ACEN and this one just cracks me up regardless of how badly i'm getting made fun of XD we all went out to pizza in costume, and this is where all the phone jokes started. ;)
http://s199.photobucket.com/albums/aa274/malikhaphotodump/ACen%202008/?action=view¤t=MOV00731.flv
