Purple Carrot Concentrate

geezus i need therapy x_x disappointing doesn't even begin to describe this crap lately.

Tomorrow is going to be awesome. i so declare it. (gawd it better be. pleeeeeez be)
new body, new home, new relationship, new life, and now a new job. i really am starting over. wth.

but hey, i'm drawing again. woo!

wedding is in 19 days. eeeeeek.

I went soul searching yesterday but all I found was a missing pair of socks. Which is ok, I guess, but it would have been more helpful to find the tv remote instead. i swear it got sucked into a black hole somewhere between my bed and my desk (about three feet).

Nothing too interesting going on, but my brother scolded me for not updating so that he knows for sure that i'm not deadand can't have my stuff. he's so sweet, lol X)
speaking of the sasquatch tho, he now has in possession the wedding ring he's gonna propose with to his number one fan this weekend. (and holy hell what a rock) this should be interesting X) as happy as i am for him (AND I AM, JAMES) i still can't help the lingering painful thought in my head that my baby brother is gonna get married. i'll wave the flag of encouragement no matter what, but i still bristle regardless. that's MY bro, cheerleader. handle with care. :F

Otherwise, been working steadily on the commish stuff now that the go ahead was given to do color. It reminds me why i never do commissions tho x.x cause holy hell, i spent ALL OF YESTERDAY (when i wasn't working) just trying to fix ONE of them cause it was giving me such a hard time. geezus that was annoying. and it was the Castiel one too. figures. you'd think i'd never drawn a damn angel before. i was FINALLY able to adjust it enough that it looks good, but man...snjv@alwk!jefaqf. i wouldn't be freaking out about these so much if i didn't know they were going to be printed/sold. gawd. the less i think about that fact the better x.x
so now it's four down, seven to go ^^;
i've been asked once again about travel info and it's driving me bonkers cause i'd love to just get a YES or NO about the UK trip. *__* aarrrggghh. tell meeeeee. *shakes fist* cause my plans for May will be a whole hell of a lot different depending on that answer.
*sigh* this is why i hate planning things.
but i want to go so badly too, if just to go. moreso for the country than the con, but one is just the plus of the other. :3

Dear doc's office. CALL ME. OMG. SOMEONE FRIGGEN CALL ME.
*fumes*

in other news,
happytemplar's mama put in the checks we gave her for the grand canyon trip next year, so now i have no other choice X) which is both frightening and awesome cause it's exciting as hell despite the fact that i'm gonna be POOR. omg. i may change my mind on this commission thing afterall x.x
But rafting down the Colorado river for two weeks? so gonna be worth it.

this may seem like a lot going on, but it's cleverly disguised X)
when i get finished with these commission pieces, i swear i am pulling out my dust covered markers and damn well using them. no more excuses.
at this point, i'm generally cranky and busy, but i'm ok. :) and i can work with that.

So.
Birthday was ftw. I had an awesome time in NYC (as we traveled across most of it in 2 degree weather, holy crap) and generally enjoyed myself :3
it was srsly freezing though, i couldn't believe that temperature. my jaw froze. i mean, literally, i was slurring my words because of the wind, and that's, like, one of the first signs of hypothermia isn't it? O__o gawd.
i was, however, happy to continue my wishful tradition of seeing snow on my birthday. and despite how gross jersey is (no offense, all my jersey friends <3) there was a new enough layer of white fluffy snow left for my enjoyment before the air blackened it up.
(sunseenli! i'm sorry i missed you! i tried calling and emailing you, but i think some wires got crossed somewhere :[ )

Another bday bites the dust X) good riddance. I'll celebrate ifwhen I'm sixty.

Otherwise, been trying to kick my ass into gear packing and all around psyching myself up for the move. Am both really looking forward to it, and really not. Not that moving has ever been a problem for me, but you end up with ties to certain things that can be hard to let go of.
My kitty is one of them ;_; gawd, that's gonna be so hard.
E, you SAP.

Went and saw 'My Bloody Valentine 3-D' with fauxfaia and LOVED every bit of it. it was cheesy and gross and dumb and gross and had PORN IN 3D and was fanfriggentastic. I was laughing most of the way through the movie. which got me some weird looks, but you know what? that movie deserves to be laughed at. campy slasher fic ftw.
that, and i'll gladly take me some more jensen in 3-D. omnomnom.

Mom wants me to come home this weekend cause of the birthday stuff. which basically means i come home and sit there with a last minute cake while she snuggles with her boytoy. funtimes. *mmm, boxcake* i'm pretty resigned at this point to limit it to only a day tho with the excuse of packing. (which really isn't an excuse, dumbass) we'll see how that plays out -.-

Ohayhocon is in two weeks (krist) and i still gotta get my damn shoes fixed and figure out what all i need to yank together at the last minute. we won't have an AA table for this one tho, so thankfully no last minute arts to do. which is good, cause i haven't been able to draw in weeks ;.; still crocheting though. wtf. i need to learn to do something more than scarves...

SOMEONE KICK MY ASS AND TELL ME TO WRITE.
lord knows my muse and i are not on speaking terms right now.

*curls up in a warm hoody and munches on mac&cheese*

So i'm feeling less like a lump lately.
but still have been very quick to get both irritated and angry, so i'm not out of the craptasticness yet. i'd apologize, but meh. i'll work through it. just don't count on a lot of conversations that don't end in 'ok enough, please piss off.'
it's just one of those weeks.
or months, depending on how things go with The Move and various other responsibilities i'd prefer to ignore. i'm grumpy and that's ok, cause its gotta work its way through my system eventually.

on the plus side, i've gotten myself back into some art, and have been happy to play with my new awesome laptop and my upgraded to UBER pc. Cs3 for the win. i love this fricken program. not only that, but it came with after effects and flash, which i haven't played with in years. if i'm bored enough, i may just fiddle :3
not that boredom has been an issue at all.
i was also lucky enough to a small, copic airbrush kit that i've been both itching to try and terrified of making some unholy mess.
the laptop is adorable tho, i love it. it's one of those that has a screen that flips around to become a tablet. i can even draw with my finger if i want :3 i've named him Sammy <3 *nerd*

oh, speaking of nerd. the latest SPN spoiler crisis is amusingly irritating enough for me to put out the effort to poke fun at the fandom once again. (not that i really need a reason) i was chatting with M about it at work today.
( cut for spoiler amusement, but cut nonetheless )

it's a good thing fandom is around, really. definitely a decent reminder that i'm really not as crazy and uptight as i think i might be.

yuck. early mornings suck on rainy days -.- I DEMAND SNOW.

heading up to NYC next weekend for my birthday ^___^ i love new york in the winter, so i'm really looking forward to it.

LOL.

cause i needed a good chuckle.
oog. man. schedules are crazy and EVERY.ONE.WANTS.TO.SEE.ME.ALL.OF.A.SUDDEN.WTH.
when did i get so damned popular? x.x
and i'd totally be up for going out and just hanging with everyone if not for things being so crazy lately. so bear with me, humans. i am but a single (yet awesome) person who hates making plans. work with me here.
work is hectic, yet manageable. gonna be in charge of training for the next two weeks, so getting prepared has been kinda nerve wracking.
been drawing like a madwoman (when i have the time), but not enough coloring.
kat wants me this weekend, going camping next weeked with sako, family reunion the following one (without my brothers tho. WOE.) and then...something something something i should write these things down.
x_X
peaceful sleep is for the weak.
my next planned vacation will be a scheduled week long coma methinks. i'll be traveling first class, of course.
guh, why can't i lose weight when i'm stressed like normal crazy people? XP