oatmeal_queen: (blood on my icecream)
a great big fancy hearted and brilliant THANKYOU to everyone who assisted me in my last journal post <3 srsly, i asked, and you guys delivered. soooo much appreciation as i am now caught up. with like, everything. not that there was much, but hey, i'm entertained.
so yeah :3 you guys rock socks.

and hot damn, Dean. what's with the whole being a dick to Cas thing? dude. he's not your pet. quit it. Cas? Smack a bitch. learned him last time.
and i don't care what anyone says, i still <3 cute little souless Sam. (cuz we didn't see that coming? pfft) the apathy is actually quite amusing and really well played.
yay show!

in other news...
after spending two weeks in the wilderness, under endless skies and enormous walls of rock with no roads, no technology and no white sound....now? its NOISE.OVERLOAD. GAH.

not even kidding, i thought i was going to crawl out of my skin at work today. there was just...so.much.SOUND. and this is all normal sound! for here, at least, something i've long gotten used to living in this horrible city. nothing was out of the ordinary except for me.
but sweet jesus was it difficult, and more than a little anxiety inducing. i wanted to stuff cotton in my ears and call it a day.

by the time i got to the end of my ten hour shift, they started up the earth shaking machine vacuum cleaners and i had just had it. i was out, faster than i'd like to admit. augh, wtfkillmenow. sirens in the parking lot, cars and honking and echoes and highways and meowing and neighbors and just...sdghjkalsdgkjhg.

i'm gonna acclimate, i do know this (sooner rather than later plz) but damn does it make me miss the canyon even more now. not that i, you know, wanna live there or anything...but damn.
i pity my race. no wonder we can't really hear things anymore.

and with that, i'm going to go sound proof my semi-dark yet somehow yellow-lit room and bury myself in blankets until my ears stop ringing.
i really miss all those stars ;.;

vacay report to come, as soon as i get my camera from teh molly. i know i've got some awesome pics so if anyone is the least bit interested, feel free to stick around :3
but yeah, now. noise. sucks out loud.


Nov. 8th, 2010 04:33 pm
oatmeal_queen: (here's something)

yeah, so...obviously, i am no longer at the bottom of the grand canyon. which is where i have been for the past two weeks. wilderness. middle of nowhere. horror movie fodder. you get the picture. BUT IT WAS AWESOME THO. just sayin.
but anywho, i survived the Colorado River (WOO!) and tho i didn't really miss the internet all that much, i am happy to have it again.

THAT BEING SAID...to all of my Supernatural buddies out there *eyeballs* you know who you are. i am incredibly reluctant to meander through LJ right now until i catch up on the last three eps. so, this is a call out for assistance please. anybody willing to give me some links? y/y? please pretty please? the last ep i saw was Weekend at Bobby's, so the three after that is what i'm missing.

so...otherwise...did i miss anything important? <.< >.> (y'know, other than spoilers. dnw.)
cause yeah. wilderness. peeing in a river. fuck yeah.

wedding 101

Aug. 8th, 2010 08:46 pm
oatmeal_queen: (tin man - cain)
stolen from [livejournal.com profile] authoressnebula, cause i could.

mememememeeee )

Been horribly busy. between working, drawing, trying to be semi-social and then organizing as much as i can for a wedding...i have no life.
which, btw, i don't care what anyone says, planning a wedding is a veritable nightmare if you haven't been dreaming of it since birth. srsly. i had no plans, nothing in mind, no image of what it was all supposed to look like when that life altering day would come and everything would just fall into place. pffft. bullshit. its hard.
i am going to be ECSTATIC when i can just BE married and all of this can be done. did you know the average wedding costs 27k? THAT'S AVERAGE. WHERE ARE PEOPLE GETTING THIS MONEY.

on the plus side, the design aspect of it is rather fun, but well, saw that coming since i have an affinity for design. that and so far there have been plenty of people around to keep me sane. so far so good. the wedding itself will be on March 25 of next year, so who knows what'll happen between now and then. at this point, if i don't kill my mother (or myself) before this is all over, i'll consider it win/win. possibly.
oatmeal_queen: (captain warp factor fuck you)
ugh, the E feels ill.

and no, not in the bacterial infectious sort of way, just in general. cause srsly, the past two weeks have been like a great big running gag. but there's no punchline. and there really needs to be one by now.

on the plus side, the commissions are finished. Done and done, art for Asylum 4 and Asylum Europe are out of my head, out of my sketchbook and off my computer. Done.

Also good, even though i don't get to go to England, I'm going to NYC instead. sweet. happy b-day to the sako.

i'll be working on a comic project as soon as i can get character sketches done and that'll last for a bit too, but won't be as manic as this last thing was. so yay for things to work on.

so yes, the stress of the commissions is over. and no, it wasn't -that- bad.
WHAT MADE IT BAD, was everything else happening at the same friggen time.

This is what i'll call 'an understandable reason for rage' )

EDIT: i called. they said the manager will be in meetings all day today and doesn't have time for me. he'll call me when he's ready, probably tomorrow.

or probably never. assholes. FUCKSHITCUNT I HATE THIS.
oatmeal_queen: (raphael)

so this week wasn't so hot afterall. It was a decent hope? I guess? MEH.

Still working my ass off and still stuck with an obnoxious deadline for these convention pics. it looks like i won't get to go to England this year tho :( woe. there's still a chance for Germany, but my optimism stopped a week ago. if anything, i'll be making an impossible deadline that neither i nor my friends thought i could make, and that's worth something at least.
that, and even if i don't get to cross the Big Blue, i'll still get paid. score.
tho i would have loved to see my friends again ;__; (no, actors are not friends, i mean other fans i met last year)

although, M is right. As nice as these guys are, they are easily distracted with everything else going on with the con and working with them for art is a PAIN and an organizational nightmare. i am such a glutton for punishment, ngl, otherwise why the hell else would i be doing this x_x art doesn't just pop out of my hand in a few minutes, fully colored and print-ready. IT TAKES SOME TIME.
but they really are nice guys, so its hard to stay mad. i'll remain detachedly irritated til its done then.

They did offer for me to come to the con in October, which would be cool, but i'm gonna be down in the middle of the grand canyon by then. so no dice.

the internet in my apartment is finally back up to working order, as it has been slow and annoying all damn week until last night. my stupid computer couldn't find the network for the life of him until i pulled out my laptop to see if it was perhaps the router. the laptop found it instantly, and suddenly my desktop got jealous and found it too! x_x wtf desktop.
so that's one less annoying thing.
after this week is done tho, i think i'm gonna stay off of my home computer after work for a few days or so to detox. stuffing my face in my sketchbook sounds like an awesome idea, especially since i still have concepts to do for [livejournal.com profile] psychosako, among other things. my poor eyes need to stare at something that isn't a computer monitor, kthnx.

sooooo many things have been niggling at me for the past week and a half to sit myself down and start writing about angels again. srsly. it's like i wake up with it and go to sleep with it now, and its beginning to get bloody persistent. the only problem with that, is that if i do go back into writing The Story again, that'll be it. It'll be all-time-consuming and i won't wanna do much else, such as previous writing experience has taught me.
if anything tho, i need to outline that bitch from the beginning. reorganize and put some kind of order into it to make some sense out of the convoluted. my writing style has changed a GREAT DEAL since we first started it, so there's a whole friggen lot of it that'll need rewrites. possibly the whole thing. not that i mind, but that's a lot of words.

inspiration is a double-edged sword, yo.

it's SPFNthursday! WOO!
oatmeal_queen: (omgwtfCAT)

i was on fandom!secrets. O: wts?

*sniffles* My day, it has been made.

now if only my drawing muse was still around to enjoy this...*sets out cheese*

thankyou to [livejournal.com profile] simithedemon for letting me know. see how quickly i rush to nerd of this inspiring news?


Dec. 4th, 2009 02:31 pm
oatmeal_queen: (how sue C's it)
Why is it that most non-religious people i know are far more tolerant of other people's faith than the religious ones? (no, not all of them)
isn't it supposed to be the other way around?

i mean, most holy scripture, no matter the sect or base, preaches about this kinda tolerance shit all the time. did i miss something?

cause its good for me to be ok with the faith of people around me, but not good for the faithful to be ok with me.
Fuck. That.

normally, this kinda thing just rolls off my back and i ignore it, seeing as i have little faith in really old dead people to begin with; but hearing some surprisingly deep rooted hate from good people, just because they think it'll spare them from hell, irritates the shit out of me.

for fuck sake children, get along.


Jul. 9th, 2009 12:07 am
oatmeal_queen: (i support no traffic)
scans from my notebook that i use for notes at work. I don't do well in meetings, so i have to doodle. HAVE TO. otherwise i fall asleep, or stare and weird people out as i try not to fall asleep. it's a vicious cycle, really.
i used to do this ALL THE TIME in school. i kinda miss it.

here thar be oogly doodles )

lol, i got nuthin.
just trying to keep my spirits up when the fights with the doctors and the insurance is sure as hell getting me down :( *deep breaths* must.not.kill.people.through.phone.
this weekend is gonna be nutz x_x

oatmeal_queen: (asfgjfgks)



wow asylum

May. 31st, 2009 06:35 pm
oatmeal_queen: (whoa sign)

did that all srsly just happen?
i mean...i didn't dream it, right? the past three days DID happen, right?

now that it's sunday night, and i finally have the chance to sit down and breatheat and process everything that i was lucky enough to do this weekend...i don't think i can wrap my head around it.

whatever i did to deserve the last few days, i am so incredibly grateful <3

some thoughts/goings on )

there's so much that i will never be able to tell *laughs* i owe them all that much.
my life is so strange. XD

LOL, i found this crazy blurry picture through [livejournal.com profile] tracy_loo_who's con post. that blotch of maroon back behind the left side of Matt? (if the pic was vertical) yeah, that's me X)
ignore that caption tho, the dude on the right is Josh, Amy's bf X) Matt was there with his fiance, not his brother. this sneaky photographer thinks they captured something great, but really, at that moment we were all comparing our freaky and gross double jointed talents. hollywood is all glamour, i tell you.


May. 26th, 2009 07:51 pm
oatmeal_queen: (asfgjfgks)

so the reason my printer hasn't been working for the past three weeks?

so much aggravation that could have been avoided if i'd just AIMED correctly.
oatmeal_queen: (ewan omg porn)
The only spoilers here will be if you know as much about theological history as I do. Especially when it concerns Judeo/Catholic/Christian history in Rome.

so then, only two things.

both in a slimming, black priest outfit and then all beat up and bruised?


really? srsly?

To anyone out there who is easily swayed into believing what they hear and see about religion from movies and television, do yourselves a favor and DON'T TAKE THIS ONE SERIOUSLY. OPEN A BOOK. IN FACT, OPEN MANY.

on the other hand...Ewan.
nomnomnomnom X3
thankfully, the beautiful Scotsman just barely overshadows the fact that Dan Brown makes up religious history as he goes. and badly, i might add. geezus man, did you research ANYTHING?!
oatmeal_queen: (Fosters Blue bluuurrggghhh)
There was a 30 degree drop in temperature from yesterday to today.


is there anywhere on this planet i can live and NOT get pressure migraines because of this crap?
cause srsly. wtf. i couldn't even sit at my computer without wanting to claw my eyes out. everything about yesterday SUCKED.
(except for you [livejournal.com profile] psychosako. you made my day so much less suck with the yummy food the geeking and the artiness, i ♡ u)

Bring it on ACen, i am so ready for a road trip.
oatmeal_queen: (ZOMBIES AHEAD)
It was a hundred degrees yesterday and today.

and the a/c in my apartment is busted.
the Galileo thermometer on my desk has informed me that the current room setting is set on Hell.
Sleeping tonight is gonna be awesome.

on a better note, Video Games Live on saturday was AWESOME. I look forward to going again with my brothers in July.
ya know, july, when its supposed to be this hot. not april.

got my hair cut today :3 not much, but enough so that i'll be able to do Lexaeus without looking like a pineapple. just prioritizing for chicago.
i'm also down ten pounds. woo!

this would all be such a great weekend if not for the GODFORSAKENHEAT.
i want winter back ;.;
oatmeal_queen: (spn - stupidity hurt brain)
So I'm at work today listening to a podfic instead of music.
Which is awesome, and I'm glad I discovered such things in order to do just that whenever music isn't cutting it. :3

However, as a side effect to living in half of the states in this country as a child, I am a linguistic leech. In every sense of the word. And the podfic I was listening to was being read by an Australian, which is cool and I really liked her accent...
But it stuck. Damnitall. And i didn't even notice until someone pointed it out.

I'm not gonna leave England without somehow getting punched in the face x.x i can see it already.


Apr. 7th, 2009 11:06 pm
oatmeal_queen: (hell in handbasket)
my mother called me tonight, and i couldn't get myself to pick up the phone.
or call her back.
i think james called me yesterday, i'm not sure. he didn't leave a message, and i didn't call to ask him either way.

why is this so godforsakenly difficult? i thought for sure i was doing better.
oatmeal_queen: (fma - head asplode)
So I'm offically doing better. woot.
Spent the entire day without drugs and was able to sit through a full day of getting work done while not being as in pain as i have been recently. it was still there, and i'm still neglecting the hell out of my desktop at home cause the chair kills me, but i'll take what i can get. not taking the painkiller was a big one. go me!
still paranoid about the damn stairs tho.


Talked to mom last night, which was good since the last two days have sucked balls for all of us, yet not good at the same time because my mother's a damn empath and she killed my (fake)mood almost instantaneously cause of all the crap on her end. I'm not completely heartless, i do feel really bad for her, but on the other hand, all of this stuff with her ex/semi-ex/wtf is just pissing me the hell off and i have little to no tolerance for it. i'll listen to her for her sake, and keep my tongue for that reason too, but the continuing saga of douchebaggery is just getting a bit past inexcusable.
which is prolly why it bothers me that she keeps excusing it.
*shakes head*

thus to change the subject for her, i mentioned about how it's a real damn possibility now that i'll be going overseas (eeeeee :D) to which she gave a loud and over protective motherly groan (srsly?) that was then followed by this convo:

E: mom, srsly, it's just England, it's not like i'd be going to Africa or anything (again)
E: mom?
Ma: England?
E: er, yah? I told you about this. many times, remember? possibly going to the UK? commissions? convention?
Ma: well, yah, i remember that...but...you said UK.
E:...yes. United Kingdom?
E: what, you didn't realize that?
E: seriously? London, England, Britain, that United Kingdom? the UK.
E: you totally didn't put that together did you.
Ma: hush.

So this whole time my mother was thinking i was going out to the middle of the desert somewhere in the middle east. for a supernatural convention.
i was adopted.


Mar. 8th, 2009 04:59 pm
oatmeal_queen: (headpiano)
i am sick to death of being stuck in bed on meds. i wanna go ouuuuuuut >.< if only i hadn't forgotten daylight savings, they might have waited for me ;.;

there is someone in my apartment building, i assume of which is fairly close to the room i'm in, that plays very LOUD and obnoxious polka music. every weekend. never fails.
i feel like i'm living under a carnival.
oatmeal_queen: (serenity pfffffft)
I am so glad this week is over x.x ugh.
Ended up going to the docs afterall, but thankfully we all pretty much agree that I simply bruised the hell outta my tailbone and nothing is actually broken. Course, I think I could have been able to tell if it was, but still. Glad to know its something that will just take time to heal, and WILL heal.

on the unfortunate side, sitting is still a bad idea. that, and i had to miss another day of work since the doc gave me Vicodin and told me to go home and get off my ass (lol) thus, i spent another day bored to tears at home and feeling bad for getting nothing done this week >.< mnargh. of all weeks, especially since i know things are busy at work. lame.

i didn't even get to see Watchmen yet ;.; even with the time off, i can't even sit in a chair for ten minutes, let alone three hours. i'd lay in an aisle if they didn't have science experiments for floors.
totally lost the chance to go for the NJcon this weekend too, but oh well. money i shouldn't spend anyway and a long trip that my tailbone would not have enjoyed. meeting Misha and getting to see Sammy would have been cool, but not if i'm cranky and hurting. no one deserves that. (miss u girl!)

the bizarre thing about this whole experience tho, is the fact that i noticed after i started taking the Vicodin that, even though my tailbone was still kinda aching, my knees didn't hurt AT ALL. it weirded me out at first until i realized what was going on. then i got excited about it. and then it just made me sad. cause srsly, should it really be this shocking to NOT have the pain in my knees?
Christie laughed and told me I was like House.
Ironically, she was the second person to say that to me recently. ifail.
and tho i know better than to think i can just keep taking the stuff, it gives a bit of a perspective as to why these things can get addicting. i'd love to be able to walk around like this all of the time without pain, but long term meds at this kinda strength can do other kinds of damage and i know better. *el sigh*

another weird thing about this injury and totally TMI is that i think i forced something to shift in my hip where it usually wouldn't rotate (lol, that sounds weird) i was stretching my poor bruised muscles and realized i could move backwards in a way i hadn't before. not painfully, just different and a bit more flexible. nothing like a little forced and repeatedly jarring pain to reset some boundaries. ouch.

on the plus side, the one good thing about being home this much means that i've been getting commission work and con art done, and that's a -big- plus. also, been just doodling in general with whatever i feel like, and i'm happy to have my muse again. still haven't touched the markers, but i know i'll get there. i had a spot in the old house where i would do all of my coloring, and i think i just need to find that kinda thing here in the new place.

oh! a question for all the SPN peeps on my f-list. Part of the commission i'm doing includes the YED, and for the life of me, i can't think of a pose for him that isn't just him standing there looking menacing with his arms crossed. I mean, srsly, there HAS to be something else i can have him doing without looking too dumb. I know the guy wasn't exactly an action star...but isn't there something, anything else he could be doing? it's chibi, but i still have a decent range of what i can work with. anybody got any ideas? help?


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