Purple Carrot Concentrate

hello there internet :)

i know, i know, it's been ages, and i'm sorry about the large gap in between posts, but unfortunately it was for a few personal, irritating reasons. (and just may i say, for the lawyer who is currently stalking my LJ? eat me. no, srsly, kiss my ass and find someone else to bother. i'm through being concerned over your problems. eat a bag of dicks.)

so anyway, in all better news, things have been pretty well for me :) i'll recap later, this post happens to be for the purpose of a proposal of sorts.

most of you who know me, also know that i avoid doing commissions at all costs. not because i hate them, per se, i actually quite enjoying drawing for others, but because i feel bad charging for it and can be fairly lame when it comes to finishing them. now i know, boo hoo, what an issue, but srsly, i have a hard time with this sometimes, so therefore i avoid it.

that being said, one of my oldest and most bestest friends is going through horrible financial issues right now, and nothing seems to be getting any better anytime soon :( she lost her job last year, is in debt up to her ears, shares the deed of a house with a husband she's trying to divorce who also has no job and no money, and she's trying to be in school at the same time.
yikes.
i hate seeing what life is doing to her right now, especially since i've been so blessed recently. tho despite being poor myself, i don't have a money sucking anchor of a husband, crazy debt or a severely low paying job like she does. she's living with my mother, the poor thing.

anyway, tl;dr, i'm going to try doing what i can by seeing if there is any interest in art commissions out there. i'm talking to all my fellow fangirls out there in LJ land, would any of you be interested in commissioning me for art? i could do sketches, inked, full color, multiple characters (not so great with backgrounds), multiple fandoms, slash, fluff, (any nc-17 stuff would have to be negotiated to see if i can do it, but you're welcome to ask) and original characters with good descriptions/references. srsly, try me.

is there any interest at all? i'm also willing to offer prints of any of my existing stuff. i have art throughout a few different fandoms of supernatural, fullmetal alchemist, sailor moon, and a ton of original angel characters.

if there IS an interest, i can lay out pricing and reasonable timelines for both the drawings and the prints, but i'd like to know i could actually pull this off reasonably. I really, REALLY want to help my friend, but without commissions, i don't have much to give :( i don't mean to use the sympathy card, if really, this is the first time i've ever truly asked, but it really is for a friend in need. i think that's worth a little expended effort on my behalf.

what say you? commission me so i can help my friend? anyone? :3

OH HAI EVERYBODY

yeah, so...obviously, i am no longer at the bottom of the grand canyon. which is where i have been for the past two weeks. wilderness. middle of nowhere. horror movie fodder. you get the picture. BUT IT WAS AWESOME THO. just sayin.
but anywho, i survived the Colorado River (WOO!) and tho i didn't really miss the internet all that much, i am happy to have it again.

THAT BEING SAID...to all of my Supernatural buddies out there *eyeballs* you know who you are. i am incredibly reluctant to meander through LJ right now until i catch up on the last three eps. so, this is a call out for assistance please. anybody willing to give me some links? y/y? please pretty please? the last ep i saw was Weekend at Bobby's, so the three after that is what i'm missing.
HELP YOU GUYS. YER MA ONLEE HOPE.

so...otherwise...did i miss anything important? <.< >.> (y'know, other than spoilers. dnw.)
cause yeah. wilderness. peeing in a river. fuck yeah.

gah, falling behind. DEAR MAY, WHY SO BUSY. yikes.

so, in ironic news, after fighting with the apartment office and being obnoxiously belittled by the suits who think i don't know my ass from my elbow, i have air conditioning. \o/
which, of course, means that the entirety of this week was a balmy 60 degrees or so, and i never once turned it on.
of course.
but, as M reassures me, its the principle of the thing, and i don't regret putting my foot down. they're doing the second bed bug spray this weekend and all my crap is moved all over the place again so that they can get it over with. if this happens again though, my neighbors are getting an H2SO4 care package. complete with bow. cause i'm sweet like that.

In awesometime news, things aren't sucking as much anymore. WHICH IS GREAT, LEMME TELL YOU.

I took my mother to King's Dominion over the weekend for a nice change of pace to mother's day and had the most amazing time in the history of amazing. no, really, i can challenge this. For those of you who know me, or have been following along with my recent surgery and weight loss struggles, one of the biggest things i've wanted to be able to do is ride as many roller coasters as i can. not because i just barely fit in them and can, but because of the strength of my courage. and last weekend? there wasn't a single coaster i didn't fit in. so i got to pick them according to whether or not i'd chicken out instead of the size of my ass.

it was, in short, UNBELIEVABLE. i was beside myself at just how easy it was to fit in and just be normal, for once in my life. i loved it so damn much, and was grateful that i made it through the entire day without once bawling like a little girl when i found out (at least til i got home, lol. stupid chick flick moments) after all the years of going with M and her family to amusement parks and just wishing and hoping that i could ride everything with her without having to do that horrifying walk of shame, i finally got to do EXACTLY THAT.

and there are no words to describe how grateful i am. if i never lose another pound, i will be happy being just...normal sized, for the rest of my life. i don't wanna be a stick, i just want to blend. and i did, and it was wonderful. no one stared at me, barely anyone even knew i was standing there and i LOVED IT. <3

aaaaaand finally, in other news:
I'm going to London.
TONIGHT.
sweet fancy moses.
if anyone else is going to be attending Asylum 4 this weekend, well, APPARENTLY SO AM I. AGAIN. last minute like whoah. but feel free to chat it up if you see me there! i'll be that weirdo in the blue and brown bunnyhat, just like last year ^___^ probably running around helping staff <3

hopefully, my art will be there too, but that depends on whether or not they listened to me this time about printers screwing things up. Cause that never happens, amirite?

wdghjklghlqeg i'm so not ready for this x_x FLYING. DO NOT WANT.

AND OF COURSE I'M MISSING THE SPN SEASON FINALE. OF COURSE. DAMNITALL.
anyone who spoils me gets stabbed, i'm not even kidding.

i have a ton of replies to leave for the kittenCas!fic i wrote for the Dean/Cas exchange (yeah, that was totally me. i'm not ashamed, i can admit it) buuuuut slightly distracted. long work days and crazy tiems had to make up for the time i'm taking off, so yeah. internet, que?
i'll get around to it, promise. :)

cause i'm leeeeeavin, on a jet plane. i don't know when i'll be back again...(monday, actually.)

*sigh*

so this week wasn't so hot afterall. It was a decent hope? I guess? MEH.

Still working my ass off and still stuck with an obnoxious deadline for these convention pics. it looks like i won't get to go to England this year tho :( woe. there's still a chance for Germany, but my optimism stopped a week ago. if anything, i'll be making an impossible deadline that neither i nor my friends thought i could make, and that's worth something at least.
that, and even if i don't get to cross the Big Blue, i'll still get paid. score.
tho i would have loved to see my friends again ;__; (no, actors are not friends, i mean other fans i met last year)

although, M is right. As nice as these guys are, they are easily distracted with everything else going on with the con and working with them for art is a PAIN and an organizational nightmare. i am such a glutton for punishment, ngl, otherwise why the hell else would i be doing this x_x art doesn't just pop out of my hand in a few minutes, fully colored and print-ready. IT TAKES SOME TIME.
but they really are nice guys, so its hard to stay mad. i'll remain detachedly irritated til its done then.

They did offer for me to come to the con in October, which would be cool, but i'm gonna be down in the middle of the grand canyon by then. so no dice.

the internet in my apartment is finally back up to working order, as it has been slow and annoying all damn week until last night. my stupid computer couldn't find the network for the life of him until i pulled out my laptop to see if it was perhaps the router. the laptop found it instantly, and suddenly my desktop got jealous and found it too! x_x wtf desktop.
so that's one less annoying thing.
after this week is done tho, i think i'm gonna stay off of my home computer after work for a few days or so to detox. stuffing my face in my sketchbook sounds like an awesome idea, especially since i still have concepts to do for psychosako, among other things. my poor eyes need to stare at something that isn't a computer monitor, kthnx.

sooooo many things have been niggling at me for the past week and a half to sit myself down and start writing about angels again. srsly. it's like i wake up with it and go to sleep with it now, and its beginning to get bloody persistent. the only problem with that, is that if i do go back into writing The Story again, that'll be it. It'll be all-time-consuming and i won't wanna do much else, such as previous writing experience has taught me.
if anything tho, i need to outline that bitch from the beginning. reorganize and put some kind of order into it to make some sense out of the convoluted. my writing style has changed a GREAT DEAL since we first started it, so there's a whole friggen lot of it that'll need rewrites. possibly the whole thing. not that i mind, but that's a lot of words.

inspiration is a double-edged sword, yo.

it's SPFNthursday! WOO!

For all the Supernatural nerds on my f-list...
this isn't really a spoiler, although the most recent episode kinda made me notice this more than before...(thanks M)

Do the angels feel like Turks to anyone else? I mean, the suits, the weapons, how they all seem to be body guards...Public Safety Division of Heaven? y/n?

Just sayin.
I love when my nerdoms collide. X)

SO MUCH DRAWING GOING ON RIGHT NOW, I DON'T EVEN KNOW.
this commission is going to be the death of me x__x
oh, and in conclusion:
dauntdraws! you are amazing and i want your babies.

this is what happens when i don't get sleep.

I'm alive, I swear.

I apologize to my flist for my recent silence, but RL has been FORCING ME TO PAY ATTENTION TO IT like an angry little pet. The kind of pet that'll mess up the carpet if you don't stop what you're doing RIGHT NOW.

there are...like...a million people i need to reply to, send stuff to, talk to, and basically all around show some sign of life to...but haven't. Cause i'm a slacker. BUT I'M WORKIN ON IT. promise :3 took me awhile to get the internet set up, that's all.

the new place has heat (woo!), sanctuary, my new awesome fishy Lucifer (cheeky little fish too), and far less boxes than it did a few weeks ago. I even got my hands on an awesome cage so that i can finally start the process of adopting ratties <3
I've also been drawing again (gleee) and writing like crazy because my muse showed up at the last possible minute and i have me some Dean/Cas fic exchange to finish before the deadline this weekend x__x gah.

which, btw, is there anyone from the SPN fandom on my flist that would be interested in doing a speed beta for me? @__@ last minute, i know, and i'm not even done yet, but another set of eyes would be a tremendous help. (morgainlefay, i'm totally gonna be hitting you up if i can't find anyone. you rock socks, i hope you know)

A special thankyew to dauntdraws for the V-day present! <3 (thankyou sweetheart, you totally didn't have to. they were balloons!)

Forgive me eldanis! i didn't mean to tease you for this long! sorry i missed you at Katsu too <3 i do have art to share, promise.

and thus, back to writing with me. i colored a bit tonight at art jam, which was awesome and i missed it like whoah, but i have GOT to GET this DONE. x_x
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happytemplar got her hands on the new Silent Hill game for the Wii, and even though I've only caught a little of it so far, it is already just creepy enough to keep me interested. well played, evil town =_= we meet yet again.
and oh, the ideas that stir. i don't write enough psychological horror. not nearly enough.

Alice in Wonderland in IMAX this weekend with the Mad Kat crew in Richmond. ROAD TRIP.
i still need to find a silly hat...sonofa...

OH HAI MARCH. *hisssssss*

As it seems to be my tradition (despite nearly forgetting this year, ack) I finally got around to finishing my end of year holiday pic :D as every year, sorry for the spamming!

i actually had a REALLY good idea for both a funny and/or serious pic that i could do for the holidays this year, but i seem to be completely cursed into doing nothing but nauseatingly cute. x_x not that i'm complaining, but i really did try to do something different, i swear.

Thus, Castiel is my victim this year. and he's chibi, of course. for those on my f-list that don't know, he's the big eyed, stare-face angel from Supernatural. :3

everyone else? hopefully you can just tell X)

as always, regardless of what you celebrate, where you are in the world or who you're with, i hope EVERYONE has the most fabulous of holidays. i love you all and continue to appreciate your support for yet another year gone. to new and old friends, to new and old obsessions, to finding that one small space in the universe where you aren't so insignificant. thanks you guys, for making me feel so awesome so often <3

Title: The First Snow
Author: oatmeal_queen
Character: Castiel
Rating: harmless. srsly, cavity inducing.
Spoilers: if you didn't know about anjuls
Medium: drawn/inked by hand, colored with copics then run through PS CS3 for effects

( quit yer mushing and show the art, damnit )

also, if you're interested, here are some previous years:
2008 - young Sam and Dean Winchester (supernatural)
2007 - Michael and Lucifer (original)
2006 - young Ed and Al Elric (fullmetal alchemist)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!! BE SAFE AND I'LL SEE YOU NEXT YEAR! 8D

So i was actually working on this picture for the Dean/Cas Fusion challenge even before i had the thing claimed. no, srsly. someone suggested a Dean/Castiel Steampunk in that big ol list, and i was all 'screw it, if i don't claim it in time, i'm drawing it anyway 8D'
so...i did, lol.

HOWEVER, i don't think i'm gonna have the time to color it before the deadline, since i have a lot of other things to do before nekocon, so i at least wanted to post the lineart.
OMG BACKGROUND. wtf. i took from a great deal of sources and my own reference material for costumes along with airship pics, steampunked nerf guns, different classes of a gentleman vs a mechanic, yadda yadda gears 'n shit.

i had way too much fun with this X) (tho, truly, inking it was a bitch, gawd)

PLEASE NOTE: I AM BY NO MEANS AN ENGINEER
so for the guns, the car (and how no one is sitting in that backseat) and the wings, don't ask me how they work or whether or not they function cause i haven't got a bloody clue. tho i could prolly redraw Castiel's wings stretched out if i wanted to, i don't think i could give you any kind of schematic. 2d pic, s'all.

yes, the brown ink is true to the original and completely on purpose for effect. Sepia brush pens ftw. i know this looks like a great big mess of lines right now, but once i get a chance to color it (AND I AM DOING SO) it will make more sense, lol.
oh, and you don't have to mention the clouds, i've already been mocked thoroughly by my art buddies for inking them e_e oops. heres hoping some color will make them look less cartoony?

( all dressed up and nowhere to drive )

oh hai gaiz! :D

sorry for the internet silence lately. i didn't mean to worry anyone, I've just had a week of no internet (oh the horrors), and have been trying to get myself to do other things with the time i have off from work. not that i can do much, but it's the principle of the thing. of which, i actually go back to work next wednesday ^_^ not a bad thing, i'm kinda looking forward to rejoining the rest of the world. and feeling better, that would be awesome too.

still healing, still getting used to all this new stuff and goings on with me. my brain and my body aren't all too happy with each other right now, but we're workin on it. sleeping still kinda sux mainly because i sleep mostly on my stomach, and seeing as there's a great big incision there, that's kinda not happening yet. tho my staples are out, and they told me that everything is looking great :3 so yay! no infections plz k thnx. they also told me i had already lost 13 lbs, but that was last thursday so i haven't a clue about now.

i stopped taking the pain meds two days ago, so i can officially drive again *glee*

eating is...weird. my meals are very small and are limited to things that can be thoroughly turned to mush before swallowed. no sugar. i'm on a timed schedule to help me with everything since i don't really get hungry yet, and i'm in almost a constant state of drinking. otherwise, it's not too bad. i started out thinking i would be hungrier with so little, but my stomach really IS that small now. bizarre.
eating out isn't so hard either. i sure as shit spend less.

but all in all i'm ok :3 i get exhausted really quickly, unfortunately, because i'm still not yet used to how little fuel i'm taking in. i'm also tired most of the time simply because sleeping is such a chore. laughing and sneezing don't hurt as bad as they did before (srsly, first time i sneezed after surgery, i was in tears, omg) tho i still have to hold my stomach when doing so, lol. each day is better than the one before, so that's a plus.

i've had a shitload of support. from both family and my friends and i love you all for it and cannot thankyou all enough. for those who came long distances to see me right up with those who are down the road and haven't stopped coming, i <3 u guys so fucking much.

the next few months are gonna be interesting.

on the plus side, i've found some mojo for drawing/coloring and FINALLY finished with tracy_loo_who's bday present (woo!) apologies for it being so late darlin! but a very merry belated birthday to you <3 hope you likes ^__^
warning, snuggling angel/man love. you heard me.
( HERE TRACE, HAVE ART )

ohhhh, also also, so, there was this fantastic fic i read in the renegade angel exchange on the dean/cas comm that was incredibly impactful to me and inspired a picture that forced me to do *gasp* a background AND perspective. WHUT.
the fic is called In the Silence After, is an apocalypse fic, and is gut-wrenchingly sad, but VERY well written. (dunno who wrote it yet!) i love this kind of inspiration.

so the pic actually came out kinda awesome and i was really proud of it what with the hatching fun tiems and all. BUT. EVEN BETTER. aesc agreed to do a collab with me on it and proceeded to work her magic and make it SO MUCH MORE AWESOME.
She posted it in her journal here
(sorry for leeching your link hon) and i srsly love what an amazing job she did. I LOVE COLLABS. SO.MUCH.FUN.

oh, and for the record? I love my show. srsly, srsly gaiz, apocalypse and sorta!zombies ftw. now one of my fav episodes and it was written by the creator of The Tic. I LOVE THIS. (SO MANY L4D REFS. I THINK BEN EDLUND PLAYS IT. gawd i miss that game ;.;)

and damnit fauxfaia, why'd i listen to you and watch Glee? cause now i can't.friggen.stop o_o

I know it's kind of obvious how desperate I've been to distract myself lately, but this is just going to be another one of those things that I need to share.

http://inbflat.net/

do please check it out and play, preferably if you've got headphones or speakers available. this has gotta be one of the more beautiful things i've come across on the internet <3

my next week is filled with doctor's appointments, an attempt to put everything in order that i'll need for before and after surgery, and basically trying to keep my head on my shoulders. (along with cleaning before my mother gets here) i've gotten to the point that i get sick almost every day now, but thankfully i know its just nerves and not a virus or anything. just too much to think about.

writing and drawing have been practically nonexistent, but it doesn't stop me from trying.
gawd i am so friggen tired.

but i'm ok :3 truly.

13 days til surgery.
and 7 days til supernatural. oh boy!