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chuck norris doesn't sleep. he waits.
Mar. 13th, 2008 01:59 pmi'm ok.
If i didn't write it out sometimes, i don't think i'd really believe it. but in all actuality at this present time, i really am ok.
but not great. (which is just going to have to do)
I had been building up a lot throughout the week with no real way to let any of it out, and that's probably what was tearing me up. mom called me on tuesday and i ended up just pouring my heart out over the phone (lord, my poor mother) but felt better for it after.
i feel so damn lethargic tho. as if nothing exciting is going on. Either that or i'm just subconsiously refusing to notice...it's happened before.
i am, however, commited to focusing on better things and happier moments. so here goes.
spent all day saturday with joe, leo and diz watching an entire season of Justice League. My love for batman grows evermore X) i never would have paired him with wonder woman...but for some reason, that works. weird.
reached my 'down fifty pounds' mark and earned myself the little yo sd doll that Shadra was kind enough to pick up for me in Cali. He's really cute and doesn't creep me out. win. thus he shall be my Raph.
i was getting frustrated with my art until i kicked myself in the head and went back to what i knew best. yes, everyone else around me can sketch quickly and messily; and -yes- it drives me nutz if i try and fail to do the same thing. XP i'm too clean of a sketcher, therefore, if i'm going to get it done on my own without assistance, then i have to put it all together piece by piece and it'll take me longer. but phooey. that's how i've always done it, and that's how i'm gonna keep doing it. BAH.
but, rant aside, once i reverted back to an old technique (and about two days of getting irritated) i got something drawn :) win.
Diz says i'm getting better at hands
THE HAND MASTER herself says i'm getting better.
another win.
i'd be ordering my next set of copics if the damn clear cases were in stock already...argh. just when one thing is in stock, another goes out. XP although i've had little urge to color atm so i'm thus ending up with a pile of things i'll need to color later x.x
i miss my story.
talked to my friend Stephy the other day who is now in the process of seeking out the material to make my olivier costume. which is exciting for all the nerdiest reasons. ^.^
my org 13 coat should be coming in the mail soon too. gotta get those platform boots fixed if i wanna be taller tho...crap.
I'm looking forward to the weekend, but I already have a feeling that tomorow is going to be long and tiring. simply because i have a soccer game tonight that doesn't -start- until 10, (wtf) and who knows how long that'll go to.
yes, you heard me right X)
unfortunately, my mutant legs won't fit into any human made shinguards.
this is gonna hurt.
a final thanks to everyone for the love and concern this week. despite the fact that i was crabby, irritable, whiny and sobby...the love is more than appreciated. *heart* i hope you all realize that.
and i'm ok.
If i didn't write it out sometimes, i don't think i'd really believe it. but in all actuality at this present time, i really am ok.
but not great. (which is just going to have to do)
I had been building up a lot throughout the week with no real way to let any of it out, and that's probably what was tearing me up. mom called me on tuesday and i ended up just pouring my heart out over the phone (lord, my poor mother) but felt better for it after.
i feel so damn lethargic tho. as if nothing exciting is going on. Either that or i'm just subconsiously refusing to notice...it's happened before.
i am, however, commited to focusing on better things and happier moments. so here goes.
spent all day saturday with joe, leo and diz watching an entire season of Justice League. My love for batman grows evermore X) i never would have paired him with wonder woman...but for some reason, that works. weird.
reached my 'down fifty pounds' mark and earned myself the little yo sd doll that Shadra was kind enough to pick up for me in Cali. He's really cute and doesn't creep me out. win. thus he shall be my Raph.
i was getting frustrated with my art until i kicked myself in the head and went back to what i knew best. yes, everyone else around me can sketch quickly and messily; and -yes- it drives me nutz if i try and fail to do the same thing. XP i'm too clean of a sketcher, therefore, if i'm going to get it done on my own without assistance, then i have to put it all together piece by piece and it'll take me longer. but phooey. that's how i've always done it, and that's how i'm gonna keep doing it. BAH.
but, rant aside, once i reverted back to an old technique (and about two days of getting irritated) i got something drawn :) win.
Diz says i'm getting better at hands
THE HAND MASTER herself says i'm getting better.
another win.
i'd be ordering my next set of copics if the damn clear cases were in stock already...argh. just when one thing is in stock, another goes out. XP although i've had little urge to color atm so i'm thus ending up with a pile of things i'll need to color later x.x
i miss my story.
talked to my friend Stephy the other day who is now in the process of seeking out the material to make my olivier costume. which is exciting for all the nerdiest reasons. ^.^
my org 13 coat should be coming in the mail soon too. gotta get those platform boots fixed if i wanna be taller tho...crap.
I'm looking forward to the weekend, but I already have a feeling that tomorow is going to be long and tiring. simply because i have a soccer game tonight that doesn't -start- until 10, (wtf) and who knows how long that'll go to.
yes, you heard me right X)
unfortunately, my mutant legs won't fit into any human made shinguards.
this is gonna hurt.
a final thanks to everyone for the love and concern this week. despite the fact that i was crabby, irritable, whiny and sobby...the love is more than appreciated. *heart* i hope you all realize that.
and i'm ok.
