almost still kickin...

oh hai gaiz! :D

sorry for the internet silence lately. i didn't mean to worry anyone, I've just had a week of no internet (oh the horrors), and have been trying to get myself to do other things with the time i have off from work. not that i can do much, but it's the principle of the thing. of which, i actually go back to work next wednesday ^_^ not a bad thing, i'm kinda looking forward to rejoining the rest of the world. and feeling better, that would be awesome too.

still healing, still getting used to all this new stuff and goings on with me. my brain and my body aren't all too happy with each other right now, but we're workin on it. sleeping still kinda sux mainly because i sleep mostly on my stomach, and seeing as there's a great big incision there, that's kinda not happening yet. tho my staples are out, and they told me that everything is looking great :3 so yay! no infections plz k thnx. they also told me i had already lost 13 lbs, but that was last thursday so i haven't a clue about now.

i stopped taking the pain meds two days ago, so i can officially drive again *glee*

eating is...weird. my meals are very small and are limited to things that can be thoroughly turned to mush before swallowed. no sugar. i'm on a timed schedule to help me with everything since i don't really get hungry yet, and i'm in almost a constant state of drinking. otherwise, it's not too bad. i started out thinking i would be hungrier with so little, but my stomach really IS that small now. bizarre.
eating out isn't so hard either. i sure as shit spend less.

but all in all i'm ok :3 i get exhausted really quickly, unfortunately, because i'm still not yet used to how little fuel i'm taking in. i'm also tired most of the time simply because sleeping is such a chore. laughing and sneezing don't hurt as bad as they did before (srsly, first time i sneezed after surgery, i was in tears, omg) tho i still have to hold my stomach when doing so, lol. each day is better than the one before, so that's a plus.

i've had a shitload of support. from both family and my friends and i love you all for it and cannot thankyou all enough. for those who came long distances to see me right up with those who are down the road and haven't stopped coming, i <3 u guys so fucking much.

the next few months are gonna be interesting.

on the plus side, i've found some mojo for drawing/coloring and FINALLY finished with tracy_loo_who's bday present (woo!) apologies for it being so late darlin! but a very merry belated birthday to you <3 hope you likes ^__^
warning, snuggling angel/man love. you heard me.
( HERE TRACE, HAVE ART )

ohhhh, also also, so, there was this fantastic fic i read in the renegade angel exchange on the dean/cas comm that was incredibly impactful to me and inspired a picture that forced me to do *gasp* a background AND perspective. WHUT.
the fic is called In the Silence After, is an apocalypse fic, and is gut-wrenchingly sad, but VERY well written. (dunno who wrote it yet!) i love this kind of inspiration.

so the pic actually came out kinda awesome and i was really proud of it what with the hatching fun tiems and all. BUT. EVEN BETTER. aesc agreed to do a collab with me on it and proceeded to work her magic and make it SO MUCH MORE AWESOME.
She posted it in her journal here
(sorry for leeching your link hon) and i srsly love what an amazing job she did. I LOVE COLLABS. SO.MUCH.FUN.

oh, and for the record? I love my show. srsly, srsly gaiz, apocalypse and sorta!zombies ftw. now one of my fav episodes and it was written by the creator of The Tic. I LOVE THIS. (SO MANY L4D REFS. I THINK BEN EDLUND PLAYS IT. gawd i miss that game ;.;)

and damnit fauxfaia, why'd i listen to you and watch Glee? cause now i can't.friggen.stop o_o