thoughts from the cubicle
May. 15th, 2007 12:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
oatmeal_queenSometimes i wonder if it's worse to only be highly stressed at certain times, or to be medium stressed ALL the time. I think I've been hanging around that range lately of medium stress, and it really starts to chip off of you after doing so for a long period of time. You start to wonder what it feels like to be stress free, like it's something that hasn't happened for so long that you forget what that's like.
don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining...i just wish i had more of an outlet sometimes. :\
Saturday should have been my day to chill out, but i cleaned instead. (it needed to be done, no regrets) Sunday was mother's day and a whole lot of driving, being back in hagerstown, planning things, keeping up with my bro and all that jazz. it was relaxing in the mental sort of way but not really a good chilling out day. So monday came up quick, and I'm not sure whether it was actually food poisoning i had or my anxiety turning my stomach into a knot, because i got real sick quick.
So monday i stayed home and couldn't do much of anything but sit still, eat toast, drink water and draw.
Despite how tired I am from having to be physically sick, i really did appreciate that day of doing nothing. it's been awhile ^^;
I think I'm doing better with the current situation I'm in anyway, especially since I've had a great deal of help from friends where I needed it most <3
tonight is the first of the belly dancing classes i want to go to, and now i'm reeeeeally nervous about it, lol. though i'd really like to dance, and from what I saw of Kat's performance, it looks like fun and something i could do ^^ we'll see how my courage stands this evening >.>
cosplay update:
Dress = GOT! zomg! Dizzy signed for it yesterday when i was home sick (ironically) and it fits perfectly XD i love it so much, and it's actually more flattering than i was expecting <3
so now, all i need are white petticoats to go under it, a curly wig, and really cute socks :3
tho i'm still debating on the wig...originally i was going to go with a reddish-auburn color, but after trying the dress on (which is hunter green btw) i noticed that it looked pretty good with my brown hair. so now i'm torn. i think it'll look nice either way, but, as sako said, it looks like it may be down to a coin toss :\
so that made my week ^^ despite being tired and sick and still feeling the funk from the trauma of the previous week. i may survive all this after all.
-humorously annoyed
don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining...i just wish i had more of an outlet sometimes. :\
Saturday should have been my day to chill out, but i cleaned instead. (it needed to be done, no regrets) Sunday was mother's day and a whole lot of driving, being back in hagerstown, planning things, keeping up with my bro and all that jazz. it was relaxing in the mental sort of way but not really a good chilling out day. So monday came up quick, and I'm not sure whether it was actually food poisoning i had or my anxiety turning my stomach into a knot, because i got real sick quick.
So monday i stayed home and couldn't do much of anything but sit still, eat toast, drink water and draw.
Despite how tired I am from having to be physically sick, i really did appreciate that day of doing nothing. it's been awhile ^^;
I think I'm doing better with the current situation I'm in anyway, especially since I've had a great deal of help from friends where I needed it most <3
tonight is the first of the belly dancing classes i want to go to, and now i'm reeeeeally nervous about it, lol. though i'd really like to dance, and from what I saw of Kat's performance, it looks like fun and something i could do ^^ we'll see how my courage stands this evening >.>
cosplay update:
Dress = GOT! zomg! Dizzy signed for it yesterday when i was home sick (ironically) and it fits perfectly XD i love it so much, and it's actually more flattering than i was expecting <3
so now, all i need are white petticoats to go under it, a curly wig, and really cute socks :3
tho i'm still debating on the wig...originally i was going to go with a reddish-auburn color, but after trying the dress on (which is hunter green btw) i noticed that it looked pretty good with my brown hair. so now i'm torn. i think it'll look nice either way, but, as sako said, it looks like it may be down to a coin toss :\
so that made my week ^^ despite being tired and sick and still feeling the funk from the trauma of the previous week. i may survive all this after all.
-humorously annoyed
