So much has changed, yet not much at all

[oatmeal_queen]

Four years to the day, and I still miss you Dad.
Not much else to say besides that.
i just wonder sometimes what things would be like if you were still here. <3
~*~

So today is gonna be fun.
I've graduated from being unable to sit on anything without horrible pain to feeling like i'm sitting on rocks instead. ouch. On the plus side, I can work again, but not all that comfortably x.x This can totally be over now, kthnx.
i would srsly love to be lying down right now.

Still, I'm trying hard to keep in good spirits and otherwise stay occupied for as long as possible. :) These kind of anniversaries shouldn't really mean much compared to the overall. It's not like I miss him any less on days that aren't today, but still. Harder not to think about four years before now on the day itself. i wonder if it'll be the same in ten years.

Still drawing like crazy (woot) and getting Asylum commish work done. I've gotten my first bit of approval so far with the go ahead to continue to inks, so i'm happy for that :3
also got chibis to do for ACEN
and smut to draw for others whenever i get chibied out (which, speaking of, strangeandcharm did you get my email? i dunno if i sent it to the right address or not -.- i wasn't sure)
i want so much to break out my markers and get my groove back, but i've gotta keep with the time management things to get stuff done. Especially since both Asylum and Acen are in the same month. eep.

Gonna waste time tonight with happytemplar and dizziness in the hopes of being in distractinggood company and getting work done.
*hugself*

Comments

[sunseenli.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: I don't think there's ever a day that you won't miss him, but I think it's perfectly understandable why some days are harder than others. This is one of those days. For what it's worth, I'm sure he's proud of you, wherever he is--there's nothing he liked better than to watch you grow, watch you come into your own, in both the serious ways and the silly ways.

[ubermorte.livejournal.com]

We each deal with it in different, but over time the pain doesn't go away as much as it becomes easier to cope with.

I hope you can somehow get some solace from hanging with the old roomies.

Get better soon.