Purple Carrot Concentrate

heyyyy, lookit that.
crazy snowy weather outside.
and awesome, the parking lot is gone.
-.-

my car is ill-equipped for the ice age. i choose life.

Association Meme: Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.
*words from Sako*

1. Sailor Moon
hahaha, yah, i guess that one's kind of a no brainer. Sailor Moon was my first love when it came to both anime and learning to draw. I traced a lot back then, overtop of really badly printed scans of sailor moon characters straight from the show so that i could color them. then just started drawing them on my own and went from there :3 it'll always be 'that one thing' that i can love and be embarrassed by at the same time. prolly forever.

2. Gay Angel Porn.
i blame molly for this. i srsly duo. it's completely her fault. if it hadn't been a bribe, if i didn't have to do angel porn for her just to get her to kiss me, than none of this would have happened. tease. of course, it's then my fault for continuing, but hey, i got to draw both pretty wings and pretty men making out. ftw. \m/

3. Media Addiction
wellll, ok. yah. the fact that i have about 400 dvd's prolly wouldn't help any sort of argument for that. i love movies. in fact, growing up, i loved them so much i wanted to be IN movies. and i don't mean as in, acting in them, but being behind the scenes. Hell, i'd have been happy holding the damn grip mic so long as i was THERE and a part of it. Never came to pass, but doesn't stop me from being fascinated, and the extras that come on dvd's were made specifically for people like me. i eat em up like candy. LIKE CANDY.
and i love going to the movies. it's just one of those things i will forever associate with good times.

4. Self Esteem
there's a lack thereof. i struggle with it, i deny it, i spit on it. without really knowing why, to be honest, aside from habit and dislike. the fact that it's really that noticeable bothers me sometimes, but it's not like i can back it up all that much. i don't have a lot of confidence in myself or what i do, despite the fact that i still continue to do it regardless. just another one of those things that i wish wasn't an issue :(

5. Natural Dancer
LOL, now that's a matter of opinion X) sure, i LOVE to dance, but not all those who sing can keep a tune. I'd like belly dance so much more if i could stand to watch myself do it, but truly, i just need to get back into practice. i have a love of music and movement that makes me wish i could do it all the time and never tire, which someday, i hope to do just that.
just gotta work on these damn hips first.

oh, and speaking of the Sako, I'm pimping this out for anyone who might be interested:
HELP PAY SAKO'S RENT
Her prices for art commishes and services are crazy low, so if anyone can help out, it would be so much appreciated. She's awesome and very wonderful to speak to, so don't be shy. She just happens to be a bit poor atm. help a starving artist in need plz!

in the meantime, i'm not having an awesome evening anymore thanks to a couple of badly timed phonecalls. one of my dear friends lost his mother last night and mom got dumped once AGAIN by asshole of the year.
i keep trying, but my lips may as well be sewn shut for all the good it does.
i'm going to bed.

ugh, man.
this time of year can go to hell. srsly. i've about had it.
i tried, i really did, but no.
screw plans, i can't make anybody happy. not my family, not my friends, not ANYBODY. and i'm too damn sick right now to deal with the guilt.
this is why i hate phones. why being a hermit is so godforsakenly tempting and why i NEVER GO ANYWHERE. cause everytime i do? someone gets pissed. regardless. apparently i can't make decent choices without my mother holding my hand.
thanks universe. thanks bunches.
fuckit.
somebody wake me up when it's the end of january.

Car ended up worse than I thought. about a thousand bucks worse. damnit. daaaaaamniiiiiit.
but it's fixed now, and i have him back so i'm not shooting myself in the foot anymore than i have already by cursing myself. this is what credit cards are for, i guess. it's just another one of those things at this point.

called my mother early this afternoon to tell her about it and she interrupted me to go do something with her boyfriend. (didn't really specify what.) said she'd call me right back.
she still hasn't called.
fine then. didn't wanna tell her anyway.

blah day with blah weather and fighting an all around blah feeling. i'm in between healthy and sick, but i'm working my immune system back up from where it's been by taking vitamins again. i forget why i stopped.

more luck with apartment hunting for christie and i, so it's only a matter of time and picking between our top choices along with who's running deals. so far, i'm optimistic with this. but it's not like i was ever worried about moving. funny, just one of those things i -don't- stress about.
short list.

thanksgiving didn't suck, thankyou to the beautiful Stackwick family.
spent yesterday evening with the BF for some well-needed love.
caught up on my sleep, no recent nightmares.

I'm not the praying sort with any kind of focus, but it'd be really decently awesome for some good stuff to go down in december. it doesn't have to be anything amazing, simply being neglected by bad stuff would be good enough for me.
i'd pray for that. even if i'm the only one listening.

fuck this. i'm gonna have an awesome christmas regardless.
in case anyone needs this that i haven't told already:

do please share if you have one :)

So, yah...I just had THE most amazing day/night.
Seriously. This ranks up there with one of the most fabulously awesome days in awhile, and I mean, strictly in the sense that COOL SHIT WENT DOWN. LIKE WHOAH.

Went apartment hunting all afternoon, for one thing. which was great, if not something that needed to be done anyway, and there's this really awesome place in between Bailey's Crossroads and Seven Corners that both Christie and I really like. and may consider for good. still time on it tho, and more places to look, but still. i REALLY liked this place :3
that was the afternoon.

So i get home, exhausted, wet, still debating when i wanna drive up to hagerstown, and get on the computer only to find an email from a friend that I had made at Nekocon who was in my general area. He basically asked if I was free tonight and that he and his friends were going to see "My Name is Bruce" at the E-street cinema and had extra tickets. Would i like to come?

( Cut for the long-winded story of AWESOME )

so afterwards, the group of us left the theater and went to the hard rock cafe up the road where we stayed until like, midnight joking about the evening, arguing art, cons, comic books, tv shows and movies until we were too exhausted to do anything more than get on the metro. i picked up another hard rock pin while there cause, amazingly, it was one i was missing, and i just got home about a half hour ago. (it's like, 2 am)

i called my little brother on the way back and bragged. just for the sake of bragging since i know i'll never have this opportunity again. and amazingly, i now have two people checked off My List. a few years ago, i was made fun of by Kevin Smith, and now I've been made fun of by Bruce Campbell. Just you wait John Stewart...you're the last of my top three X) oh, it'll happen.
*gleeeeeee*

http://newsblogs.chicagotribune.com/religion_theseeker/2008/07/can-you-sue-the.html

...wow. ok.
good luck with that. XD

so, among the many things I've been itching to do lately (some smarter than others) I decided to go ahead with the piercing urge I've had since, like, september.
As proud as I am to say that, once again, and as with the rest of my piercings, this was done on a whim and decided for at the last minute. X) I like that I can say that about every single one i have, lol. makes it nostalgic in some masochistic kinda way. So I walked in this time and promptly went for the nose. easy target, considering, but should be fun and cute nontheless.

In a not-so-proud moment, on the other hand, despite the fact that getting pierced doesn't really scare me or make me nervous in any way, the moment the needle went through the cartilage, my body promptly decided to BLEED PROFUSELY with whatever amount happened to be stored in me from the neck up. wtf. Srsly, it was like a battle zone, and the tiny thing didn't even hurt! there was just the familiar crunch and then *GUSH*. ACK.

so after five minutes of blood donation all over the poor woman's hands and down the front of me, plus an added millionth time of apologizing, i ended up with my nose pierced. (she was a good sport at least, :) made fun of me and everything)
and it looks cute on me ^.^ so I regret nothing.
Tho it was a good thing i was wearing a black jacket, but even then, the white zipper got all stained and you can still see most of the splotches in good light. Nikki says I should keep it on there like some sort of mark of battle XD i'd be tempted if it wasn't hygenically hazardous.
heaven forbid I ever get punched in the nose man. I'll lose everything I've got first shot. yeeeesh.

on a side note, (and completely off topic) I finally got my hands on a good set of contacts lens in my prescription that -actually- turn my eyes blue! woo! FINALLY.
I'm itching to costume SO bad, it's not even funny. if only i could lose the weight in my legs ;.; but unfortunately i know that's gonna be the last thing to go since it was the first to gain. damnit.
Although, on that same track, i'm convinced our house scale is trying to tease me into a false sense of thiness. I'm so close now to having lost fifty lbs...soooo close. *finger cross*

i'm itching to try a new medium again. >.>
or maybe even go back to an old one.
...hmm.

i need better things to do than count days of the week XP

dude, i just did the shirts for the staff of manganext, tho. only I and few others would think that's as cool as i do.

i know i've spent quite a few of my journal posts recently simply bitching and moaning, but i've got another lovely slap to add to the pile.
as of this morning, i was introduced to a moral dilemna.
DAMNIT.
i HATE moral dilemmas! especially when it's an unecessary trap between what you -shouldn't- do, and what you reallyreallyREALLY want to do. *insert adult language*
and to think i actually thought i had a shot at getting back into online rp >.< fuck it. it's always something, like you can't do rp without the drama, right?
but man do i miss writing. i want a third option.

yah, that was vague, but i don't need a lecture when my own head is doing it for me e.e

my biggest savings grace today is that they had some cooked squash and beans downstairs on the salad bar thinger. which means i get more than salad...thus making me happier than i would normally be.

on the non-bitchy side (well, sort of) my favorite shirt doesn't fit me anymore. my esteemed zombie food shirt is a bit big, fresh and clean from the hot dryer. which is cool, yet not. cause it's my favorite shirt.

i need a new vice.